It just one of those days.
Well let me beginat the end of my day. For some odd reason Mark showed up 10 minutes late to choir. I was exited to see him, but did not realy know why. I mean sure hes gay and sure hes attractive, but I know I'm just not ready for a relationship right now. Its one of the god given twists in life when youve been asking for seomthing for long and then you realize your not ready and boom the oppurtunity prestents itself. SO later that day i deicded to get his sn and talk to him later that night. I told him I was gay and would be there if he ever needed to talk...and also said I was not ready for a relationship. He was surprised i was gay when i knew he was...it was in his voice really...but Im just at a loss now. Just one more step of twistedness...or I could choose to hurt him and try this out, leaving next year in the dust...besides honestly i think he needs to get used to things more...like i still do...i just wanna be friends, who would ever think I, the lonely guy would ever say that to someone who I think is nice?