Everybody. Freak out.
::sigh::
Things have been strange lately. Work has been so stressful and unfulfilling that it's been overshadowing any and all good moments lately in my life outside of work and at home. I suppose that's when you realize that it's time for a change, though, right?
Things actually aren't that bad--when I'm not being pushed around and beaten down at my job. When I'm not having everyone put more and more responsibility and work onto my shoulders, and pushing more and more of their work off to me. I want to help, but I can't even get my own shit done half the time--now, people need me to their shit on top of that?
On top of that, I've been feeling really unappreciated lately. Unaccounted for. Uncared for. Not with Rick or my family or anything like that--just in general. Maybe its just stress. Or maybe it's a reaction to what people around me are doing. I dunno.
I've been really unhappy and stressed lately. Time for a change. Not sure when, or even where, but it's time for a change. The only things that are keeping me happy right now are Rick, my family, and the wedding.
Wedding plans are coming along marvelously. Though, I wouldn't really call it "planning" anymore. It's more just paying everyone that needs to get paid and figuring out the finer details. I'm getting excited. Tired of being broke...but getting excited.
It's going to be beautiful. Rick and I mailed out all of our invitations together yesterday. For doing them all ourselves, they look like professional quality. I really appreciate him helping with them--I would have gotten so frustrated with the computer work.
Rick's been wonderful--with me bringing home my work stresses, getting physically sick, and just being all around moody and stressed out--he's been my rock and my savior. I can count on him to help me through anything, and I appreciate and love him so much for it.
I just hope that I do the same for him when he's down and out.
Oh yea--I think I know why there's all this big to-do about weddings and why they're so stressful---if you and your spouse-to-be can make it through planning the most expensive and ridiculous party either of you has ever thrown (while trying not to piss off each other's respective families)....without killing or maiming each other in the process...you are all set for the rest of your lives together.
We need a vacation. Badly. In a month, we'll be married, and we're both taking two and a half weeks off from work--vacation time to cover it or not. We need time away from everything to just be with each other...no work, no puppy, no responsibilities--just us and whatever we want to do. I can't wait.
Disney World, make me feel like a kid again--GROWING UP SUCKS! The cruise will be wonderful, too. No worries. It's going to be amazing.
My family is down in the Outer Banks. It makes me cry how bad I wanna be down there with them. That's my ultimate happy place--I'm pretty sure it's what I really need right now, too. I need to find a happy place closer to home -_-
Ugh. Time to finish laundry and get ready for work. I hate this shit.
By the way, when I quit smoking, I gained 20 lbs and can't fit into my wedding dress---can we say expensive alterations, anyone? That'll ruin your week, too.
Things have been strange lately. Work has been so stressful and unfulfilling that it's been overshadowing any and all good moments lately in my life outside of work and at home. I suppose that's when you realize that it's time for a change, though, right?
Things actually aren't that bad--when I'm not being pushed around and beaten down at my job. When I'm not having everyone put more and more responsibility and work onto my shoulders, and pushing more and more of their work off to me. I want to help, but I can't even get my own shit done half the time--now, people need me to their shit on top of that?
On top of that, I've been feeling really unappreciated lately. Unaccounted for. Uncared for. Not with Rick or my family or anything like that--just in general. Maybe its just stress. Or maybe it's a reaction to what people around me are doing. I dunno.
I've been really unhappy and stressed lately. Time for a change. Not sure when, or even where, but it's time for a change. The only things that are keeping me happy right now are Rick, my family, and the wedding.
Wedding plans are coming along marvelously. Though, I wouldn't really call it "planning" anymore. It's more just paying everyone that needs to get paid and figuring out the finer details. I'm getting excited. Tired of being broke...but getting excited.
It's going to be beautiful. Rick and I mailed out all of our invitations together yesterday. For doing them all ourselves, they look like professional quality. I really appreciate him helping with them--I would have gotten so frustrated with the computer work.
Rick's been wonderful--with me bringing home my work stresses, getting physically sick, and just being all around moody and stressed out--he's been my rock and my savior. I can count on him to help me through anything, and I appreciate and love him so much for it.
I just hope that I do the same for him when he's down and out.
Oh yea--I think I know why there's all this big to-do about weddings and why they're so stressful---if you and your spouse-to-be can make it through planning the most expensive and ridiculous party either of you has ever thrown (while trying not to piss off each other's respective families)....without killing or maiming each other in the process...you are all set for the rest of your lives together.
We need a vacation. Badly. In a month, we'll be married, and we're both taking two and a half weeks off from work--vacation time to cover it or not. We need time away from everything to just be with each other...no work, no puppy, no responsibilities--just us and whatever we want to do. I can't wait.
Disney World, make me feel like a kid again--GROWING UP SUCKS! The cruise will be wonderful, too. No worries. It's going to be amazing.
My family is down in the Outer Banks. It makes me cry how bad I wanna be down there with them. That's my ultimate happy place--I'm pretty sure it's what I really need right now, too. I need to find a happy place closer to home -_-
Ugh. Time to finish laundry and get ready for work. I hate this shit.
By the way, when I quit smoking, I gained 20 lbs and can't fit into my wedding dress---can we say expensive alterations, anyone? That'll ruin your week, too.