So this is SuMmEr?!?
hi me. hi everyone. well i havent updated since before my summer began. florida was a fun time, im glad i had time to rebond with smith, it had been way too long since we spent some quality time. so i guess this is the point when my life is supposed to change, and well i dont think it will...im tired but i feel i should write...i feel very confused, frustrated, angry, and lonely. and i dont entirely know why. im not used to letting pety emotions steer through the sea of my life. i wish i could set sail and chase the sun, knowing that everyone i loved and left was happy. i am sick of being rebellious and ungrateful, i love my family and i am sick of hurting them. i want to leave the house and make them proud but the way things stand i wont be able to get that far because of the problems that presently stand in my home keep me from going to college, the very place i need to go to make them proud. that may not make any since but it is what i want to do. i feel i am seaching for what i already have but do not see. i dont know why i do it. i have stopped following my wisdom, although it still yells at me. its like i defy everything i know i should do just because i know its right.
<>PEACE OUT<> ~ ammon