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This weekend will be the start of a full-blown new job search for me. I am so upset with my work. Yesterday was my return to the office from my long weekend vacation, and I was so pissed off with my boss, client, and staff. Absolutely nothing happened when I was gone, when numerous projects needed to be completed. It was as if they said, "oh Amy's gone... let's wait on her stuff." Then, when I get in the office, I have 100 emails to sort through, some of which state that projects need to go out ASAP on the day I return.
So, not only did I return knowing that I had specific projects due 5/15 that needed to be completed, but then I have to deal with new projects and projects that I had given out and no one did anything with. Then, when I speak to my boss, he tells me that he was "buying time" with a lot of the projects for when I returned so I could handle them. Keep in mind that this is May. This is supposed to be off season for us when we can take vacations and cpe breaks. Yet, I have tons of projects due for my client that will keep me busy throughout the summer. Keep in mind that directors (ahead of me) aren't working late and are spending their time looking through our software and pulling things for staff in case they "need to reference it."
I was so upset yesterday (I was just drained and empty today.). This is technically the week that I would have my blow ups, and I know I'm on the new meds, but I honestly think my anger was totally justified yesterday too. Now, I'm completely drained and just upset. My mom has been calling me asking me if I'm ok because she knows I'm extremely upset (and she's worried about me every since I told her about my depressed thoughts...). I almost feel like I made the worse choice ever in becoming an accountant. And that feels awful since I put so much time, energy, and money into this career choice.
I used to be happy at work. Now I just feel like they're wringing me dry. I know that half of it is because they trust me to get the job done, but feel like I'm just being taken advantage of now.
So, not only did I return knowing that I had specific projects due 5/15 that needed to be completed, but then I have to deal with new projects and projects that I had given out and no one did anything with. Then, when I speak to my boss, he tells me that he was "buying time" with a lot of the projects for when I returned so I could handle them. Keep in mind that this is May. This is supposed to be off season for us when we can take vacations and cpe breaks. Yet, I have tons of projects due for my client that will keep me busy throughout the summer. Keep in mind that directors (ahead of me) aren't working late and are spending their time looking through our software and pulling things for staff in case they "need to reference it."
I was so upset yesterday (I was just drained and empty today.). This is technically the week that I would have my blow ups, and I know I'm on the new meds, but I honestly think my anger was totally justified yesterday too. Now, I'm completely drained and just upset. My mom has been calling me asking me if I'm ok because she knows I'm extremely upset (and she's worried about me every since I told her about my depressed thoughts...). I almost feel like I made the worse choice ever in becoming an accountant. And that feels awful since I put so much time, energy, and money into this career choice.
I used to be happy at work. Now I just feel like they're wringing me dry. I know that half of it is because they trust me to get the job done, but feel like I'm just being taken advantage of now.