what could mean more than this
things are quite the suck lately. last week was fantastic up until the day after my birthday.
i'm such a lazy douche bag, i should be securing locations. if they don't let me shoot in my school and if they don't let me shoot at toys R us i'm fuuuuuuucked. and yet somehow it's just easier for me to worry about it rather than actually go and get it over and done with.
and tommy still likes me and i still like him but i think it's just because i like feeling like somebody likes me. i think i'm still not over someone else and i think i need some kind of closure other than the silent treatment. ha. closure does not exist...
i went on a little bit of a change-binge. all of a sudden i just went nuts cleaning/changing/fixing things. it's sort of partially insane. oh and i went shopping.... crappy mood + shopping = bad.
funny how the things i really need to change about myself are the things i'm least willing to change.
its been a pretty bad day i guess. its the type of day where you see your phone at 11 at night and realize you never had it with you all day... and then you get that feeling of excitement that you may have a voice mail or a text message or a missed call but when you look at your phone, there's nothing there and you realize that nobody needed you at all today.
i feel very blank and boring. i feel replacable and forgettable. i'm in the type of mood where it's hard to imagine anyone wanting to be friends with or be around me. there really is nothing to me.
i feel like air
i'm such a lazy douche bag, i should be securing locations. if they don't let me shoot in my school and if they don't let me shoot at toys R us i'm fuuuuuuucked. and yet somehow it's just easier for me to worry about it rather than actually go and get it over and done with.
and tommy still likes me and i still like him but i think it's just because i like feeling like somebody likes me. i think i'm still not over someone else and i think i need some kind of closure other than the silent treatment. ha. closure does not exist...
i went on a little bit of a change-binge. all of a sudden i just went nuts cleaning/changing/fixing things. it's sort of partially insane. oh and i went shopping.... crappy mood + shopping = bad.
funny how the things i really need to change about myself are the things i'm least willing to change.
its been a pretty bad day i guess. its the type of day where you see your phone at 11 at night and realize you never had it with you all day... and then you get that feeling of excitement that you may have a voice mail or a text message or a missed call but when you look at your phone, there's nothing there and you realize that nobody needed you at all today.
i feel very blank and boring. i feel replacable and forgettable. i'm in the type of mood where it's hard to imagine anyone wanting to be friends with or be around me. there really is nothing to me.
i feel like air