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I'm actually really sad about not getting to go to costa rica....the only thing that makes me feel a bit better is knowing that my cousin ganina didn't go either seeing that she has a baby and family now....
I just wanted that time with them...and yeah it would have been awkward...I barely know my family....but it still would have been fun...funny how I would never want to go when I was younger and now it's all I want...I guess I can just be glad that my mom made me go those times....and know that it's part of being an adult...I still stand by what I did..but I'm still allowed to be sad about it...right?
so since my mom and sister left this time I got stuck with the dog...that follows me everywhere(I have over smothering issues...why I don't know)...barks when it's alone...ahhhhh...okay mainly I hate the following can it not just stay in my room when I go to shower....no...it has to follow me and then sit outside the bathroom door whining....it's driving me crazy...I can handle a regular dog...I think...but I can't have something with me at all times..I feel this sense of freedom when I put it to bed at night...but then it barks...and then again in the morning back to hanging out with this dog at all times....it's like having a baby...and I don't want a baby...or kid...or anything...a month of this?...I can't do it
and it kinda saddens me...I thought I liked animals...I'm just use to doing whatever I want when I want...and I like having that option...not worrying about getting home to walk the dog...or that it's bothering everyone...I can never have kids....I could probably not even babysit one when I think about it...I haven't been around kids for long periods of time for awhile so it would probably make me want to punch myself numerous times..or the kid...which would not bode well...what happened to me is all I keep asking myself...
hopefully I get use to the dog....or the month of june goes by real quick :p
I overthink things a lot...and stupid things worry me...well they are probably stupid...how do you make that go away
I hate the flood of emotions that can come rushing in at one moment..and I never react
I hold it
think about it till I realize my irrational conclusion
and I like this cause I'm not like many girls that say these stupid annoying things...well I think they are stupid/annoying :p
but I hate that I think it at that one moment
if that makes sense
I never make sense...but I love bagels..and it's time for lunch...so I'm off
I just wanted that time with them...and yeah it would have been awkward...I barely know my family....but it still would have been fun...funny how I would never want to go when I was younger and now it's all I want...I guess I can just be glad that my mom made me go those times....and know that it's part of being an adult...I still stand by what I did..but I'm still allowed to be sad about it...right?
so since my mom and sister left this time I got stuck with the dog...that follows me everywhere(I have over smothering issues...why I don't know)...barks when it's alone...ahhhhh...okay mainly I hate the following can it not just stay in my room when I go to shower....no...it has to follow me and then sit outside the bathroom door whining....it's driving me crazy...I can handle a regular dog...I think...but I can't have something with me at all times..I feel this sense of freedom when I put it to bed at night...but then it barks...and then again in the morning back to hanging out with this dog at all times....it's like having a baby...and I don't want a baby...or kid...or anything...a month of this?...I can't do it
and it kinda saddens me...I thought I liked animals...I'm just use to doing whatever I want when I want...and I like having that option...not worrying about getting home to walk the dog...or that it's bothering everyone...I can never have kids....I could probably not even babysit one when I think about it...I haven't been around kids for long periods of time for awhile so it would probably make me want to punch myself numerous times..or the kid...which would not bode well...what happened to me is all I keep asking myself...
hopefully I get use to the dog....or the month of june goes by real quick :p
I overthink things a lot...and stupid things worry me...well they are probably stupid...how do you make that go away
I hate the flood of emotions that can come rushing in at one moment..and I never react
I hold it
think about it till I realize my irrational conclusion
and I like this cause I'm not like many girls that say these stupid annoying things...well I think they are stupid/annoying :p
but I hate that I think it at that one moment
if that makes sense
I never make sense...but I love bagels..and it's time for lunch...so I'm off