One step forward, two steps back
Adam went back to the farm. He said that with Amber gone, there's nothing for us here anymore, no reason to stay. But I think that there is. The dreams that I pushed back while dealing with Amber and taking care of her, rose up with a vengeance. They're clear and vivid and I can't ignore them. Sometimes, I see the shades of people when I'm awake.
And the things that come at night, whispering, creeping when I'm not having good dreams . . .
It's as if I've taken ten steps backwards for the four I took forward. I told Adam that I couldn’t leave, that I had to stay here. That I felt it, and it was the truth. That coupled with Amber's words . . . well, I just couldn't leave yet.
Besides, we both need to grieve in our own way. Adam wouldn't consent to stay because this place reminds him of Amber and getting close and getting attached and losing what you care about. I stay partly for that very reason.
The night Adam 'ported away, I had a glass of Merlot before bed.
One step forward, two steps back.
And the things that come at night, whispering, creeping when I'm not having good dreams . . .
It's as if I've taken ten steps backwards for the four I took forward. I told Adam that I couldn’t leave, that I had to stay here. That I felt it, and it was the truth. That coupled with Amber's words . . . well, I just couldn't leave yet.
Besides, we both need to grieve in our own way. Adam wouldn't consent to stay because this place reminds him of Amber and getting close and getting attached and losing what you care about. I stay partly for that very reason.
The night Adam 'ported away, I had a glass of Merlot before bed.
One step forward, two steps back.