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[amethysted_ink]

I have realized recently that I'm way too obsessed with my weight and food.  Diet pills, low carb, 1200 calories a day, you name it - I've tried it.  People might mistake my constant looking in the mirror as vanity.  Rather, it's analyzing my body and pinpointing areas I think I need to tone or tighten.  In the  mirror, what I always see is someone

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[letitbe_]

::raises hand::
But I actually am overweight. I think I worry about it a lot because the general inherited physique in my family is to grow shorter and rounder with age.

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[demoralyzer]

You certainly aren't...I also have "fat genes" in my family so whenever I feel like I have added a little flab or I look in the mirror it's with frustration.

I love food but I have a very restrictive diet (though I cheat, and feel guilty...). It's kind of a vicious cycle.

[daveman2k]

my worrying just stems from a family history of heart disease. dad died of a heart attack. Not fun.

[crazy_clockwork]

No, you're definitely not alone in this sort of thinking. Sure, I still have more weight to lose, but I still see something different than when I take a picture or something. For example, the one I posted in my journal this evening. It wasn't until I saw a detached photograph of myself was I able to see that I'm not over 300lbs like I used to be. It's just my brain still sees myself the way I was.

I can tell you one million times over that you are not fat, but until you are able to see it for yourself, that million times will just be constant chatter; running through one ear and out the other.

Just be good to yourself and know that on the outside, you do look fabulous. Trying so hard to achieve something (that, I believe, you have already achieved) will just end up hurting you.

Take care, hun. :*