I may be blonde but I am not as easy as you think
Where should I start. I know it has been forever since i have written anything. I am sick right now and I realize that i will not have him. I met a really cute guy name Brandon. I think that is why he loves her because it turns off pain. I think that he confuses love with lust. I have discovered that I do not really matter in my best friends life. That is how he makes me feel sometimes. He does not have time for me anymore and that really hurts. That is my fear that he is going to forget about me. I do not want that. I having no feeling of security what so ever. Is wrong to feel this way? I have no evidence to prove other wise. at least I am going to the movies on Sunday with him. I think he is doing it out of pitty. I get to spend five hundred dollars this weekend and I am finally getting my twenty hole docs. It is going to feel good. My brother will be gone in eight weeks and It is noy soon enough. I wish I could disappear. My writting skills are getting worse. I finally get off of groundation tomorrow. My best friend hurt me, I thought that it would be super cool to by him a camera cause we like taking pictures together. Well as soon as he got he was like wow thanx I finally can take pictures of Lynn. I do not think he knew what he said. It is okay I guess. I know he is going to leave me sometime. I wish that I could be in love forever. I miss all my friends on the internet. Well i am back. Please remember me, please forgive me, never ever forget. i love you lots jazmyn, dark angel, and ana. Sorry if you felt like I was ignoring you. I did not mean to. Do not forget to love me.