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Wow.... I am so fucking pissed right now. This is completely ridiculous. So, I've been fighting with Teddy CONSTANTLY. It's so hard to handle. I admit that I started getting bitchy with him. Most of the time it was just because I was irritated with him and I shouldn't have been an asshole, because that would be acting as bad as he does. I apologized. And I meant it. But I had been holding in so much. I put up with so much shit while we were going out. I stood by him through fucking EVERYTHING. He'd yell at me and swear at me because his parents were mad at him. And I'd put up with it. Only a few months ago did I start standing up for myself, because I was sick of feeling like dirt. That's when he started classifying me as a bitch. And it's funny because he only recalls me being a bich these past three months when I found notes that I wrote to him about when he fucked up. From August. They said things about how I'd try to be serious around him and he'd act like what I was saying wasn't important at all. And he'd joke around the whole time and disreguard everything I was saying. Another note talked about him ditching me for DEANNA. He even called me Deanna.
Everyone thinks I am such a bitch because of this whole ordeal. They think that I'm such a bad person. That the whole time I went out with Ted he treated me great and I was just some stupid girl who treated him like dirt. But nobody even knows the half! He fucking threatened me on the phone saying I need to watch my back and then told me he was going to call the cops on ME. There was that time he flipped out on me for no good reason and punched my wall and made a huge dent in my bathroom door. He called me a cunt and a whore and amde fun of me because I was crying. He came to the door and barged in and ripped down pictures he had drawn me off the wall and then tore down my favorite poster(say anything) and crumpled it up. I was in the corner near my door crying and he didn't care. He told me to get the fuck out of his way and slammed my door. He apologized.. and I forgave him.
God, and whenever he'd have a bad day he'd take it out on me. How can someone say they love you yet call you a cunt, a whore, a slut, a bitch...when you didn't even do them wrong?? How are you supposed to believe someone when they say they love you, but then find out they've lied to you about IMPORTANT things for months. I gave him an attitude and interrupted him, but I never made up a screen name to fuck with him and his brother.
God, I was afraid to hang out with certain people because he is so jealous. He'd call me and wouldn't even say hi, how are you? He'd say "WHERE ARE YOU, WHO ARE YOU WITH?! JUST SARA? ARE YOU SURE? I JUST HEARD A GUY'S VOICE.." He saw me in the hallway talking to TJ and he called me a bitch and asked if he was my new "fuck buddy." Yet if I ever talked to him the way he talks to me I'd be fucking dead.
I hate this shit.
We're only supposed to talk about what I do wrong. Whenever I have something to say it's bullshit. and I need to "shut the fuck up." Oh, do I hear that often and it gets on my nerves so much. I should just become a fucking mute.
I'm sick of all this drama and I'm sick of being called a bitch. I don't even have time to cool off. I have a constant headache. I wish we could just go back to where we were
Everyone thinks I am such a bitch because of this whole ordeal. They think that I'm such a bad person. That the whole time I went out with Ted he treated me great and I was just some stupid girl who treated him like dirt. But nobody even knows the half! He fucking threatened me on the phone saying I need to watch my back and then told me he was going to call the cops on ME. There was that time he flipped out on me for no good reason and punched my wall and made a huge dent in my bathroom door. He called me a cunt and a whore and amde fun of me because I was crying. He came to the door and barged in and ripped down pictures he had drawn me off the wall and then tore down my favorite poster(say anything) and crumpled it up. I was in the corner near my door crying and he didn't care. He told me to get the fuck out of his way and slammed my door. He apologized.. and I forgave him.
God, and whenever he'd have a bad day he'd take it out on me. How can someone say they love you yet call you a cunt, a whore, a slut, a bitch...when you didn't even do them wrong?? How are you supposed to believe someone when they say they love you, but then find out they've lied to you about IMPORTANT things for months. I gave him an attitude and interrupted him, but I never made up a screen name to fuck with him and his brother.
God, I was afraid to hang out with certain people because he is so jealous. He'd call me and wouldn't even say hi, how are you? He'd say "WHERE ARE YOU, WHO ARE YOU WITH?! JUST SARA? ARE YOU SURE? I JUST HEARD A GUY'S VOICE.." He saw me in the hallway talking to TJ and he called me a bitch and asked if he was my new "fuck buddy." Yet if I ever talked to him the way he talks to me I'd be fucking dead.
I hate this shit.
We're only supposed to talk about what I do wrong. Whenever I have something to say it's bullshit. and I need to "shut the fuck up." Oh, do I hear that often and it gets on my nerves so much. I should just become a fucking mute.
I'm sick of all this drama and I'm sick of being called a bitch. I don't even have time to cool off. I have a constant headache. I wish we could just go back to where we were