Day 13 -- Equinox
Hopefully, as we hit the half-way point between night and day, I'm hitting the half-way point with my job search.
It's a balancing act here, between calm and panic, between determination and depression. I'm fighting urges to just give it all up and vanish into the wilderness, beyond the reach of creditors (even though I'm still a way off from having them even vaguely unhappy with me... no missed bills on my side at all), it would be a preemptive vanishing. But that would take me away from the friends I hold so dear as well, and so I push that thought aside.
Little things help. Just had confirmation that I'm currently in process with at least three places. At least two of them I should be hearing back from in the next week. I'm really hoping that one of them ends up being the right one. This being unemployed thing really isn't for me. (At least not while I've still got all the debt from the last time I was out of work hanging over my head.)
But, I do have time now to work on other projects. And, slowly, I'm accepting the fact that I may as well dive in to some of them. After all, nothing at all is gained just sitting and waiting for the calls to be returned or the e-mail responses to come in. So, more reading and writing time for me. There would be more going out time, too, if it weren't for lack of transportation and iffy weather. I think tomorrow or Friday would be a fantastic day to run off to some out of the way park or trail and spend the day among rocks and trees.
From here on out, the days get longer and the darkness subsides out there in the real world.
Here's hoping the same holds true inside my head.
Anyway, tomorrow night is the Refresh DC meeting. It should be interesting, as always. You should come out to it. :)
It's a balancing act here, between calm and panic, between determination and depression. I'm fighting urges to just give it all up and vanish into the wilderness, beyond the reach of creditors (even though I'm still a way off from having them even vaguely unhappy with me... no missed bills on my side at all), it would be a preemptive vanishing. But that would take me away from the friends I hold so dear as well, and so I push that thought aside.
Little things help. Just had confirmation that I'm currently in process with at least three places. At least two of them I should be hearing back from in the next week. I'm really hoping that one of them ends up being the right one. This being unemployed thing really isn't for me. (At least not while I've still got all the debt from the last time I was out of work hanging over my head.)
But, I do have time now to work on other projects. And, slowly, I'm accepting the fact that I may as well dive in to some of them. After all, nothing at all is gained just sitting and waiting for the calls to be returned or the e-mail responses to come in. So, more reading and writing time for me. There would be more going out time, too, if it weren't for lack of transportation and iffy weather. I think tomorrow or Friday would be a fantastic day to run off to some out of the way park or trail and spend the day among rocks and trees.
From here on out, the days get longer and the darkness subsides out there in the real world.
Here's hoping the same holds true inside my head.
Anyway, tomorrow night is the Refresh DC meeting. It should be interesting, as always. You should come out to it. :)