...what has happened to me...

[ameenicole]

man...i think i've lost it...geez...

well lately i've been out of it...like seriously...with school...i'm just nto trying as hard as i should be...like i have two more essays to write and imma do it tomorrow night...the night before its due...plus i have a presentation next week that i haven't even started researching on...i should study ochem and

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Aww... Amee...

[recontramil]

Don't be so hard on yourself, I've been there several times, and I honestly think that it's great you recognize your role and responsibility, but don't start bashing yourself either. We all have our moments... and it's definitely a good thing you recognize your need of God. Just ask Him, He'll comfort you, it may take crying on your bed for a night, desperately begging Him to fill your life, but the next morning you'll feel a lot better, and you'll notice His presence. Just try to keep that constant communication with Him, that ceaseless prayer (1 Thes 5:17), He'll never reject you, no matter how bad you feel you've failed Him. Like the parable with the prodigal son, He's always there waiting for you, with His arms wide open, just waiting for you to come home. Seek Him first, and all the rest will be added unto you, He'll fix all your problems, His burden is light, He promises, and His promises are true :).

I was looking at your club glam entry, and it got me wondering, why do you feel so bad about being a killjoy? And what makes you want to go again with friends, to eventually feel comfortable in that atmosphere? I think the fact that you felt uncomfortable there should tell you something... you don't have to "get used to it." Don't be so preoccupied about image, I promise that it really only matters until you want it to, and some of the people I respect the most aren't afraid of being themselves, though others may see them as prude, weird, unadventurous, closed-minded... but the fact that they hold strong to their principles and stay faithful to God really strikes me as a powerful witness. God will never reject us, there's always another chance (there's dozens of examples in the Bible, just look at Peter's denial, the prodigal son, David sleeping with Bathsheba, Samson's final moments...), and we shouldn't be ashamed of being His people (1 Pet 4:16). We're all in this struggle together, and Satan works hardest on those who have the most potential. Just hold strong, God is there for you, He holds you in His hands.

I'll be praying for you! Don't let troubles get you down. May God give you the strength to stay firm, and the motivation you need to get out of this pit. Pray hard! God will answer; He promises.

-Andy

"Even before they call, I will answer;
while they are still speaking, I will hear."
Isaiah 65:24