SHIT HAPPENS WHEN YOU PARTY NAKED....
So I love my friends, ALL of my friends... just thought you guys should know in case you didn't...
Today has been a slow simmer, but that's a good thing.... it was about due. I saw a couple having a small wedding in a gazeebo in Old Carrolton. It was decorated with poinsetas and a large Christmas tree with red orbes; a beautiful sight. Strange to see the way the small towns share a strong sense of history that is closely knit to their way of life. Maybe they're oblivious to the things that I've seen, and the way that the "real world" can be..but maybe they have been tasting a life that I crave...one that is full of silence and a easy going and laid back nature; where their week-end highlight is stroling Old Downtown with their parents. Sounds nice, but at the same time is incredibly terrifying for my to picture myself in. Some thing tells me that there's so much more to experiance, but I will have to live in a small town someday (just so that I can know for myself)...
I'm not sure that I will ever make anyone happy, but if that's the way that it goes then it will go that way, and I will begin giving my apologies now...I'm so sorry. I really am.
I feel dazed, like I just came up of a four hour movie that I didn't understand... In the words of Jim Morrison, "This is the strangest life I've ever known."
I had a dream last night. I was in a small, dark room, all alone. There was a cot in the corner and a wooden door on the other side of the room. A small stream of light poured through a crack in the shutters, everything else was pitch black. In the dim light it caught sight of an enormous, beautiful butterfly, with the most magnificent shades of blues,blacks, and reds I have ever seen. I felt for the butterfly, being locked in this room with me, so I went over to the window to open it. Then the butterfly landed on my hand, I could feel its little teeth biting my skin. I shook my hand, thinking it would fly away, but it fell to the floor with a thud. It was dead. And I woke up. Don't have a clue yet what the hell that one means....It will give me something to think about all week...
Tha man at the pinball machine, "There's only one instant, and it's right now. And it's eternity."
-Later