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wow
im like just broken into about a thousand little peices here.to all my ladies out there...how would you all feel if ur bf once told u about a female friend that had but described them like some sort of queen?"the greatest personality,gorgeous,all this great stuff...loves doing everything ur man does..(everything im not basically)and he also says that by the time he realized how beautiful she was and how much he liked her it was too late she was with someone and he was talking to ordinary servant YOU" well thats how andrew described his friend krista...now geez how the hell am i supposed to react when last night "his mom wants him" and he goes to erics truck to talk to her but im sitting in the house and he cant even intorduce me to this perfect person? i mean i really think hes embarrased of me.but i cant measure up in the double d category or the goddess one either so i guess im out on all shots.maybe im being melodramatic but like he really was like in love with this girl or somehting so yesterday idk i told him to go get her.i hope theyre happy 2g.im sick of competing with other girls for someone whose laying right next to me all the time.im sick and tired of competing for his attention when just one girl walks through the door hes all eyes on her i could be standing in a cathedral all dressed in white here she comes another girl and there goes andrew.i want all of him or nothing.and everyone else can have the million pieces of me shattered all over the place
but im not supposed to be jealous that by bf places this girl upon a pedestal and kicks me in the stomach?no im psychotic?yea..any girl back me up here.if ur guy did this to you, and then shes sitting in front of your house..please andrew grace me with her presence maybe some of her highness would rub off on me and you could love me too? i have nothing against this girl by the way its my asshole bf who cant seem to think of anything else but himself...well he can actuallf he thinks of eveything but me.my feelings/maybe we need a break.im in love with a past andrew one who would never disregard me when im crying but me i think i would always feel this shut out by him idk...i just wish i could make things perfectly clear to him that i dont want to give him up i just want him to understand how much i care about him..