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okay.like i just got off the phone with andrew. who im not supposed to call...and our friend toms gramma passed away the other day but instead of andrew going to her wake today for a little bit hes going to get his tattoo done and go 2m.like seriously how fucking selfish is this kid?my mom has been in the hospital since tuesday and hes seen her one time.for maybe like 45mins.after i stayed an extra day at his cabin all wknd so he could play his dumb drinking game, after ive been trying so hard for him.idk man...this is like really getting on my nerves.his whole life revolves around him and only him and this is how i feel.he cant miss one game of softball or his whole life is like trashed.god forbid something ever happens to me on a tuesday or a thursday bc andrew wont be around hes got softball.yes there are things in life that are priorities and there are also things more important than swinging a bat.i love him to death but i think what everyone says about him is right that hes just like his brother eddie and that he is never ever going to change.yes i do sometimes take him for granted for all of the wonderful things he does for me, but sometimes i would give that all back for him to just have some decency.and to learn to be honest. if ive got 3 ppl telling me one thing and andrew telling me something else...when andrew has lied and got caught about this same thing before 3 times... who am i going to beleive.he thinks it should be him.well it would be if you would just stop lying.and this is alos where trust comes in.i sometimes think that he thinks trust is all about cheating n shit no its about lying about stupid things too.so idk
i hope we can fix this stuff maybe im just in a bad mood.and taking it out on him..im trying not to call him at work bc the other day i called him to tell him that my moms heart rate dropped to like 35 overnight and eric was like get off the phone ur working.now i normally know eric wouldnt say that...if he knew what we were talking about (i think)but andrews always saying it to eric look, i dont tell eric to get off the phone or anything so im like u know what im not calling to talk about who ur gf cheated on you with this time...and im pissed off and andrews dad defends eric! we werent just chatting i was telling him something very important.these are some of the reasons why i suspect andrews dad does not really like me.i try tho i really do.all i know is, i only called andrew today to tell him that i made it home ok from my MRI and that my mom has to stay another day.in case ur all wondering my mom had surgery on tuesday and she has to stay in the hospital.im highly upset about missing my mom like this.all crazily.but andrews dad was nice about letting me use the expedition to go to the doctors today to get an MRI. I finally got to a Neurologist and my migraines are bad, i have nerve damage behind my right eye, theyre giving me 200mg of topomax but for pain they gave me naproxen which is basically like aleve.idk its like nothing but im atcually going to lay down bc the contrast they gave me is making me feel yucky so....