old ambie vs new ambie
I'm reading through my old livejournal entries... and it seems that I've changed a lot in the past couple of years. For one thing, I used to try to do everything perfectly... I was very stressed out all of the time too.. I cared about my grades and stuff.. but now I don't really care as much.. I don't have to be perfect. I still do lots of things, but not that well, and maybe I'm just a lot more apathetic now. That doesn't sound like a good thing, because apathy carries a negative connotation.. but I'm a lot stressed out nowadays. Also, I think I enjoy life more because of that.
But also, I realized that although I've changed a lot, I've also stayed the same a lot. I noticed how a lot of my entries were similar to thoughts I have now.. I'm still basically the same person with the same basic thoughts and feelings.. just now I have more experience and I know I can't be really good at everything. So I'm an older me.. but it's amazing to see how much I've changed and yet how much I'm still the same.
Is it weird to read through my old entries? I still have my old xanga entries (from both of them) and my myspace blog entries... I copied them onto a word file before I deleted them... so sometimes I read through them too. But I guess it's kind of like a diary.. or some way for me to remember things that happened before.. and it's cool to see how I've changed or how I've stayed the same... it's cool to see what I was like back then, cause reading old posts is kind of like reading someone else's posts.. and I'm looking back at my life from a different perspective. It's fun.
But also, I realized that although I've changed a lot, I've also stayed the same a lot. I noticed how a lot of my entries were similar to thoughts I have now.. I'm still basically the same person with the same basic thoughts and feelings.. just now I have more experience and I know I can't be really good at everything. So I'm an older me.. but it's amazing to see how much I've changed and yet how much I'm still the same.
Is it weird to read through my old entries? I still have my old xanga entries (from both of them) and my myspace blog entries... I copied them onto a word file before I deleted them... so sometimes I read through them too. But I guess it's kind of like a diary.. or some way for me to remember things that happened before.. and it's cool to see how I've changed or how I've stayed the same... it's cool to see what I was like back then, cause reading old posts is kind of like reading someone else's posts.. and I'm looking back at my life from a different perspective. It's fun.