meh
I've been unemployed ever since I finished my job in London, which is four months ago now. During the first month, we were busy renovating the flat and enjoying the summer, and I didn't worry about it. I had a decent amount of money saved up, and I was sure I'd find something soon enough.
Well, I'd completely forgotten how dead quiet everything in Finland goes for the summer. Everyone takes their four-week holiday in July or August, so obviously nothing happens and no decisions (i.e. hires) are made. I applied to all the few HR jobs I was able to find, sent a couple of open applications to interesting companies, and they all came back negative, if I even received a reply. One of the most disappointing ones was the company I worked for before we moved to London.
Meanwhile renovation costs kept coming in for the first two months, and my mortgage payments keep ticking. At first I matched N's contributions to our joint account for bills, but at some point I just had to stop because I was running out of money. At the moment I'm afraid to even log in to see how much I owe him, and I hate owing anyone, even if it's N. I applied for unemployment benefits, but it was granted only from the end of August, because I'd a) worked abroad and b) handed in my notice and not been fired.
August and September have been seriously depressing. I've never been particularly career-driven, and I wouldn't have said my sense of self-worth was tied to my job, but the constant rejections have me feeling really bad about myself. I mean, I have 4 years of experience in the field, and I've done lots of different things. My CV is good, I know it is, so it has be something's wrong with me, right? On better days I know it's probably because collective agreements are a major thing in Finland, and I have no experience with those, but it's hard to remain objective at this point. If a friend hadn't talked me into playing Pokemon GO, I'm not sure I would've left the house in weeks.
And the worst thing is that I put a lot of effort into every application. I rearrange my CV to match the advert, research each company and tailor my application to each position. It's a lot of work for zero results so far. Having then to copy and paste all the information in my CV into yet another web form is just another slap in the face.
In the last 2 week or so, I've noticed an uptick in the number of positions being advertised. I've sent out a lot more CVs in September so far than I probably did in all of June.
And this morning (at 7.23 on a Saturday!) I got an email from a major retailer inviting me submit video responses to their first round of interview questions. I should be over the moon for finally, finally getting somewhere, but instead I'm a nervous wreck because I need to film myself speaking.
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Well, I'd completely forgotten how dead quiet everything in Finland goes for the summer. Everyone takes their four-week holiday in July or August, so obviously nothing happens and no decisions (i.e. hires) are made. I applied to all the few HR jobs I was able to find, sent a couple of open applications to interesting companies, and they all came back negative, if I even received a reply. One of the most disappointing ones was the company I worked for before we moved to London.
Meanwhile renovation costs kept coming in for the first two months, and my mortgage payments keep ticking. At first I matched N's contributions to our joint account for bills, but at some point I just had to stop because I was running out of money. At the moment I'm afraid to even log in to see how much I owe him, and I hate owing anyone, even if it's N. I applied for unemployment benefits, but it was granted only from the end of August, because I'd a) worked abroad and b) handed in my notice and not been fired.
August and September have been seriously depressing. I've never been particularly career-driven, and I wouldn't have said my sense of self-worth was tied to my job, but the constant rejections have me feeling really bad about myself. I mean, I have 4 years of experience in the field, and I've done lots of different things. My CV is good, I know it is, so it has be something's wrong with me, right? On better days I know it's probably because collective agreements are a major thing in Finland, and I have no experience with those, but it's hard to remain objective at this point. If a friend hadn't talked me into playing Pokemon GO, I'm not sure I would've left the house in weeks.
And the worst thing is that I put a lot of effort into every application. I rearrange my CV to match the advert, research each company and tailor my application to each position. It's a lot of work for zero results so far. Having then to copy and paste all the information in my CV into yet another web form is just another slap in the face.
In the last 2 week or so, I've noticed an uptick in the number of positions being advertised. I've sent out a lot more CVs in September so far than I probably did in all of June.
And this morning (at 7.23 on a Saturday!) I got an email from a major retailer inviting me submit video responses to their first round of interview questions. I should be over the moon for finally, finally getting somewhere, but instead I'm a nervous wreck because I need to film myself speaking.
Originally posted at Dreamwidth. You can also comment there using OpenID.