i was as high as a kite, and i felt like i'd never come down...
i LOVE school this year. I have such faith that i am going to do so well. I just cannot afford to mess up again. Last year was such a disaster. i was focused on everything else but school. No more skipping, no more slacking, no more faking sick. I just need to stop my little cycle of academic distruction. I believe that this year, since i truly love myself, I will do so much better. i am confident. I dont care what other people think. If they hate me, and i know i that they dont have a good reason for hating me, then why should i care? Yeah, I dont neccesarily WANT enemies, but if they are so hateful, that they NEED to start conflict, then let them. They cannot hurt me. I am impervious to pointless name-calling and hatred. My friend andrew and i were discussing hid ex-girlfriend one day, and he just plainly told me that he thinks it is so stupid how she hates me. He said that i shouldnt care because she doesnt have a valid reason. She just hates me to hate someone. I truly feel sorry for her. i have learned this past year that you just have to pray for people like that and have faith that God will deal with their hearts. I mean, look at it this way, they cant possibly be happy living in hate. LIVE IN LOVE is something I totally believe in. This year i hope to demonstrate that. If anything, that is a truly Christ like way to live. I am no longer looking for love from another person. i am just seeking God. Yeah, if i bump into love that would be all great and good, but i wont put that new found love before God. His love is unchanging. His love is something I can completely count on. I am soooo looking foward to this school year. My life is changing for the better, i am learning how to deal with things and people in a more effective way. i am just so content with myself and who I am turning out to be. I am so joyous in the Lord. For the first time in my life I can say that realy, i am just HAPPY. I love my friends, I love my family, i love myself, and still I love God.