I am just done indulging in that which is not mine

[amberlaraerose]

I am already going straight to hell for what i have done last year. Besides the fact that is it wrong and i seriously need to stop doing it. I feel like i am just a magnet, and only attract those i cannot have. It might just be my promiscuous outlook on relationships and dating but I am tried of it. And I will not do it any more. It doesn't make sense, i can only imagine what it is doing for my karma. But FUCK how i just wanted to rip all your cloths off and have my way with you. You don't know how hard it was for me to contain myself. I am however quite proud. I'm sure he is feeling a bunch of other emotions and proud is not one of them. But its wrong. IT is Wrong. IT IS WRONG. I know this. Why am i going to do something intentionally wrong?
So here i am re-evaluating my character once again. That's what life is isn't it? Living, fucking up and learning...