Lifes crazy path
So... I am finally good about Paul and I being done. We've been talking some here and there and we're buds again.. although when I tell him I love him.. and I do... he doesnt ever say it now... which bugs me... after all we are friends and have been for years... even though we arent together... you can still love a friend! Eh.. oh well!!
I've been dating a few guys lately... the one.. .well.. he's 24. Yah.. 24!!! He's so damn cute though.. and he really likes me.. I like him.. its cute.. we've had a kiss so far and some cuddling.. and.. we have our first "official" date on friday!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm stoked and scared and trying to figure out should I just go with it.. or run screaming the other way cause I dont want to get too close and get hurt!!! But.. I'm already in too deep I think.. cause I dream about him... think about him alot... often.. and he's the same... we talk each night on the phone now.. and we spend as much time together out at work as we can.. its cute.. but crazy.. and where I didnt want people to know out there and have gossip going.. its now to late.. and that was his fault.. at the staff barbq the other day he was all hugging me.. and we cuddled and were whispering to each other while sharing a blanket (it was breezy and chilly!!) So yah.. there is now definately gossip about me at work.. oh well =)
i'm dealing with a health issue atm that is scaring me... but until I know whats going on I'm trying to just stay positive and not worry.. but then something will happen and freak me out.. but eh... it could be something as minor as a virus.. but it could also be as bad as a brain tumour... so.. till I get my CT scan sometime soon... we cant rule anything out... just a lil worrysome! Oh well.. thats life right?
So yah.. mostly I'm pretty happy and content.. loving my new place! OMG!!! Its so cute! I love it... cant wait to finally get unpacked.. its been a month now and I havent done alot... just what I needed basically.. been working way to much.. so when I get some time off in the next few weeks I'll work on getting rid of all these boxes in my spare room! So yah.. thats that... anywho.. gotta get to bed.. so night!
I've been dating a few guys lately... the one.. .well.. he's 24. Yah.. 24!!! He's so damn cute though.. and he really likes me.. I like him.. its cute.. we've had a kiss so far and some cuddling.. and.. we have our first "official" date on friday!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm stoked and scared and trying to figure out should I just go with it.. or run screaming the other way cause I dont want to get too close and get hurt!!! But.. I'm already in too deep I think.. cause I dream about him... think about him alot... often.. and he's the same... we talk each night on the phone now.. and we spend as much time together out at work as we can.. its cute.. but crazy.. and where I didnt want people to know out there and have gossip going.. its now to late.. and that was his fault.. at the staff barbq the other day he was all hugging me.. and we cuddled and were whispering to each other while sharing a blanket (it was breezy and chilly!!) So yah.. there is now definately gossip about me at work.. oh well =)
i'm dealing with a health issue atm that is scaring me... but until I know whats going on I'm trying to just stay positive and not worry.. but then something will happen and freak me out.. but eh... it could be something as minor as a virus.. but it could also be as bad as a brain tumour... so.. till I get my CT scan sometime soon... we cant rule anything out... just a lil worrysome! Oh well.. thats life right?
So yah.. mostly I'm pretty happy and content.. loving my new place! OMG!!! Its so cute! I love it... cant wait to finally get unpacked.. its been a month now and I havent done alot... just what I needed basically.. been working way to much.. so when I get some time off in the next few weeks I'll work on getting rid of all these boxes in my spare room! So yah.. thats that... anywho.. gotta get to bed.. so night!