((OOC: Private Entry.))
Is borrowing a nasel bird a crime? I didn't think it was a crime, but I didn't think I'd ever commit a crime and find a justifiable reason for doing it. But if I committed a crime after all, I'm not sorry in the least.
But I didn't realize until Nanami left how I've gotten so used to her being around. The only time I've ever missed someone this much was when my dad was sent away, but that was different. It's like wearing sneakers that don't fit because they're just a shade too big; it feels wrong, but all you can do is wait until your feet grow just enough. I don't know. I can't even write a decent analogy. Eugene's never around either, which just makes things even lonelier.
What if she runs into her present self while she's back home? Then what? I'm such an idiot, worrying about someone who can clearly take care of themselves. Such an idiot. But it doesn't feel right without her around to throw stuff at my head and yell at me and jump to the wrong conclusions and violently respond to the wrong conclusions she makes. I don't even care if thinking that is un-manly, so there.
If I have to commit another crime to write her a letter back, I don't care, and part of me is disgusted with how pathetic I am.
Then there's that NEW guy. Well, I'll show HIM. If that's what it takes to get rid of these pathetic and distracting feelings I don't understand, then I'll do it!!! I'll show HIM who's Budehuc's number one detective for hire!!!!!