The love most chapter two
A/n : Hiee…this is the next chapter of my fic ‘the love most’…I’m sorry for the inconvenience grammar mistake in here… Anyway, just read…
Title: The love most chapter 2
Group: FLAME
Pairing: Yusuke hisato (a.k.a twincest)
Rating: pg-13
The Love Most
Chapter Two
“I need to talk to you, Hisa-chan…”
He is facing me seriously. I wonder what’s in his thought right now. That time, I didn’t answer immediately but walked closer to where he sat.
“What’s that?” I smiled confusedly and sat myself next to him, “it’s rare to find you like this.” I smiled again; trying not to let my hand touched him directly.
“It’s about…ummm…it’s about…” he tried to speak.
I watched him bit his lower lip. It seemed he’s hard to speak about ‘that something’. I didn’t force him to, but I really wanted to know.
“Go on…” I continued.
He’s sighing then smiling. I knew he’s hiding something.
“Umm, nothing, come on, let’s sleep. I wish tomorrow will be better.” He stopped staring at me; lowered his gaze to look at the bed. I still wanted to know but for I already made my commitment to always obey him, I let my head touched the pillow.
“Aniki, its okay if you can’t tell me right now, but promise me you would tell me later, ne?........You know, I’ll always be at your side, you have to believe it. I’ll always be….” I smiled at him again and strained my eyes to shut. “Ja, aniki…oyasuminasai…”
“Hisa-chan…” He started talking, “I always trust you…always…” He paused. “Saa…I’m going to sleep, sweet dreams…oyasumi.”
I opened my eyes just to see him sleeping. I moved my hand to touch him on the face. I don’t know why I couldn’t stop my hand from doing it like I always do. Then Yusuke opened his eyes slowly, maybe he was wondering what I am doing…
Smile was still on his face. He then whispered, “What’s the matter?”
He looked at my eyes. I avoided his looks by facing the pillow that separated our body.
“It’s hard.” I said.
“What’s that?” He replied.
I took a deep breath and talked.
“It’s hard for me, it really is…to leave you. As if…as if, only a half of my soul id going to Sendai…you know, I really want you to go with me, but…”
“Hisa-chan…” He said.
“May I hug you?” I asked.
…………
Yusuke didn’t answer but caressed my cheek. He said, “Really? There’s no problem? Ne, Hisa-chan, you asked about my problems recently…why don’t you tell me yours? You acted like you can handle all of my problems, but what about yours? You pushed your problems aside…”
I faced the ceiling; closed my eyes; then blocked his sight to me by moving myself to the contrary side of him.
“Oyasuminasai…” was all that I said to him, ended our conversation.
***
The next morning, means that the day I’ll be leaving the house is coming closer.
I avoided Yusuke a bit; scared that I can’t stop myself in doing forbidden things to my lovely brother. Just when I was about to go to the dance studio, I heard my mother cried aloud.
“Hisato! HISATO! Come here! Help me! QUICK!”
I quickly ran myself to her.
“What’s the matter?” I said hastily.
“Your brother…Your brother…What’s wrong with your brother? He collapsed so sudden! I asked you yesterday if there’s something wrong with him! He couldn’t open his eyes…what’s wrong with him! Tell me!” Mother begged. Her eyes were full of tears and one by one was falling trough her cheek. She hugged him tightly. She rubbed his cheek and buried her face on his shoulder, she called his name many times but still he didn’t wake up.
I couldn’t say any words but put my hand on her shoulder. My mother and I couldn’t hide our worried face to each other, but I won’t tell her anything before Yusuke told me to.
“Calm down…he’ll be alright. Now, help me to stand him up. I’ll carry him to our room. Mother, will you please prepare some ice and water in a pot? I’m going to wash his face. It’s really hot and sweaty, please…will you?”
She nodded and went to the kitchen for the ice and water. I carried Yusuke on my back. I already geared up some more energy to lift my body up, but it didn’t took seconds to realize that Yusuke is losing his weight.
‘What have you done to your body? ....I feel like carrying a little kid on my back’
I laid him on the bed slowly. Mother was already in the room with medium-sized pot, full of ice and water, on her hands. She is biting her lip, wretchedness is shown on her face. She is waiting for me to speak something, but again…I won’t tell her anything before Yusuke told me to.
“Ne, Mother…aniki is fine. He will tell you everything by his own. I’m not going to speak unless he ordered me to, I don’t have the right to speak in this case…I’m really sorry.” I smiled at her; tried to decrease her sadness.
Mother and I accompanied him almost all day in the room until the phone rang.
She ran to the first floor to grab the phone and answered it.
“Yes…sorry, but…my son is sick right now…I think I can’t…”
Mother lowered her voice so I can’t eavesdrop anymore.
Not in a long time, mother came back with a very heart breaking expression.
“What’s the matter?” I asked.
“What should I do? The company ordered me to go to Fukuoka now. It’s not all a sudden; it had been decided a month ago.” She spoke shakily.
“How long will you stay in there?” I asked her again…I think I know why she is worrying Yusuke a lot, since he will be left alone because of my leave and her.
“Not so long, about 2 days…I will be back before you left to Sendai…Hisato, can I trust you to take care of him? I’m really sorry that I can’t cancel the company orders…I have to go in a minute…I’ll prepare my things first.”
Mother hurried to her room before I can answer her question.
‘Of course I can take care of him…he’s everything to me…I won’t let anything harmed his life.’
The dance lesson seems to be forgotten. I prefer to stay all day long by his side. I wiped Yusuke’s sweaty face all the time. He must be really in pain, I thought.
“Hisato! I’m going. Take good care of your brother promise me!”
She didn’t even go upstairs to look at us both. She really is in a hurry. Damn her company.
I heard the door sound as its being closed. Then mother’s footsteps seem further and further away from my place.
For once I can’t forgive myself. I’m the one that caused him this sickness. It’s all because of my fault. I grab one of his hands and caressed it softly. It’s a bit cold, not the ices fault, the sweat are really covered his whole body.
Not so soon after, Yusuke’s body shrugging a little. I’m so surprised since I’m still holding hiss hand caressing it.
“A…aniki?” I asked.
I saw Yusuke tried to open his eyes. Hi lifted his hand to touch his face.
I asked him once again, “Aniki? Are you alright?”
“Hisa-chan…” he opened his eyes slowly, “what happened?” He asked again, “what’s with that expression?” he stopped.
He’s right; my expression is too understandable that I can’t hide my sadness from him.
“I should be the one that asked you that question, aniki…” I paused, “what happened? You suddenly collapsed on the floor right in front of mother…are you alright?” I added.
“Don’t worry…I’m alright. I just felt a bit dizzy this morning so I couldn’t stand or walk properly, and when the dizziness became horrible I can’t help but collapsed so sudden…that’s all…anyway, thanks for worrying me.”
“Aniki…don’t try to hide anything from me, you are my other half. Even when we are separated, we are still one…so I can feel at least half of your feeling. I know you tried to hide something…”
………..
Silence came…he, still lying on the bed, facing the ceiling to avoid my talk. I, once again, grab his hand and bring it to my cheek. I caressed it on my cheek, he then closed his eyes.
“Aniki…I love you…you’re the most important person for me in this world…” I said while caressing his hand on my cheek, “I can’t see you suffered…it’ll hurt me more…” he still didn’t move his face; still facing the ceiling.
“Thank you Hisa-chan…I love you too…you’re my precious brother…I’ll tell you everything someday…if I still have time…but not now, this isn’t the right time to talk…I still feel confused how to explain things to you…I can’t get rid of those thinking, can you wait for an unpredictable time for me to talk?” he moved his face; facing me. His eyes were so intense that everybody who looks into them will suddenly follow to what his saying. Those eyes hypnotized my for years.
Things are changed, this time; he is the one who caressing my cheek with his hand. I abruptly feel left out…I feel he is too far to be reached and too far to be loved. Those make my heart broken into pieces.
He loves me too…I’m happy for that…I should have happy for that
But…how can I become more and more greedy that I don’t want him to just love me as a brother…
I love him more than everything…more than anyone…
I want him to love me the way I do
I couldn’t endure my feeling any longer, but I don’t want him to be hurt. I don’t care if my heart broken into tiny pieces, but I don’t want his heart to be broken like mine…
I couldn’t keep my feeling any longer that I pass a single tear falling trough my cheek…
A/n : How’s that?…it’s kinda short-again. I should write more to make myself able to write longer chapter... (^o^)v
Hope you enjoy your reading…chapter three will come up soon
Thanks for reading…
Title: The love most chapter 2
Group: FLAME
Pairing: Yusuke hisato (a.k.a twincest)
Rating: pg-13
The Love Most
Chapter Two
“I need to talk to you, Hisa-chan…”
He is facing me seriously. I wonder what’s in his thought right now. That time, I didn’t answer immediately but walked closer to where he sat.
“What’s that?” I smiled confusedly and sat myself next to him, “it’s rare to find you like this.” I smiled again; trying not to let my hand touched him directly.
“It’s about…ummm…it’s about…” he tried to speak.
I watched him bit his lower lip. It seemed he’s hard to speak about ‘that something’. I didn’t force him to, but I really wanted to know.
“Go on…” I continued.
He’s sighing then smiling. I knew he’s hiding something.
“Umm, nothing, come on, let’s sleep. I wish tomorrow will be better.” He stopped staring at me; lowered his gaze to look at the bed. I still wanted to know but for I already made my commitment to always obey him, I let my head touched the pillow.
“Aniki, its okay if you can’t tell me right now, but promise me you would tell me later, ne?........You know, I’ll always be at your side, you have to believe it. I’ll always be….” I smiled at him again and strained my eyes to shut. “Ja, aniki…oyasuminasai…”
“Hisa-chan…” He started talking, “I always trust you…always…” He paused. “Saa…I’m going to sleep, sweet dreams…oyasumi.”
I opened my eyes just to see him sleeping. I moved my hand to touch him on the face. I don’t know why I couldn’t stop my hand from doing it like I always do. Then Yusuke opened his eyes slowly, maybe he was wondering what I am doing…
Smile was still on his face. He then whispered, “What’s the matter?”
He looked at my eyes. I avoided his looks by facing the pillow that separated our body.
“It’s hard.” I said.
“What’s that?” He replied.
I took a deep breath and talked.
“It’s hard for me, it really is…to leave you. As if…as if, only a half of my soul id going to Sendai…you know, I really want you to go with me, but…”
“Hisa-chan…” He said.
“May I hug you?” I asked.
…………
Yusuke didn’t answer but caressed my cheek. He said, “Really? There’s no problem? Ne, Hisa-chan, you asked about my problems recently…why don’t you tell me yours? You acted like you can handle all of my problems, but what about yours? You pushed your problems aside…”
I faced the ceiling; closed my eyes; then blocked his sight to me by moving myself to the contrary side of him.
“Oyasuminasai…” was all that I said to him, ended our conversation.
***
The next morning, means that the day I’ll be leaving the house is coming closer.
I avoided Yusuke a bit; scared that I can’t stop myself in doing forbidden things to my lovely brother. Just when I was about to go to the dance studio, I heard my mother cried aloud.
“Hisato! HISATO! Come here! Help me! QUICK!”
I quickly ran myself to her.
“What’s the matter?” I said hastily.
“Your brother…Your brother…What’s wrong with your brother? He collapsed so sudden! I asked you yesterday if there’s something wrong with him! He couldn’t open his eyes…what’s wrong with him! Tell me!” Mother begged. Her eyes were full of tears and one by one was falling trough her cheek. She hugged him tightly. She rubbed his cheek and buried her face on his shoulder, she called his name many times but still he didn’t wake up.
I couldn’t say any words but put my hand on her shoulder. My mother and I couldn’t hide our worried face to each other, but I won’t tell her anything before Yusuke told me to.
“Calm down…he’ll be alright. Now, help me to stand him up. I’ll carry him to our room. Mother, will you please prepare some ice and water in a pot? I’m going to wash his face. It’s really hot and sweaty, please…will you?”
She nodded and went to the kitchen for the ice and water. I carried Yusuke on my back. I already geared up some more energy to lift my body up, but it didn’t took seconds to realize that Yusuke is losing his weight.
‘What have you done to your body? ....I feel like carrying a little kid on my back’
I laid him on the bed slowly. Mother was already in the room with medium-sized pot, full of ice and water, on her hands. She is biting her lip, wretchedness is shown on her face. She is waiting for me to speak something, but again…I won’t tell her anything before Yusuke told me to.
“Ne, Mother…aniki is fine. He will tell you everything by his own. I’m not going to speak unless he ordered me to, I don’t have the right to speak in this case…I’m really sorry.” I smiled at her; tried to decrease her sadness.
Mother and I accompanied him almost all day in the room until the phone rang.
She ran to the first floor to grab the phone and answered it.
“Yes…sorry, but…my son is sick right now…I think I can’t…”
Mother lowered her voice so I can’t eavesdrop anymore.
Not in a long time, mother came back with a very heart breaking expression.
“What’s the matter?” I asked.
“What should I do? The company ordered me to go to Fukuoka now. It’s not all a sudden; it had been decided a month ago.” She spoke shakily.
“How long will you stay in there?” I asked her again…I think I know why she is worrying Yusuke a lot, since he will be left alone because of my leave and her.
“Not so long, about 2 days…I will be back before you left to Sendai…Hisato, can I trust you to take care of him? I’m really sorry that I can’t cancel the company orders…I have to go in a minute…I’ll prepare my things first.”
Mother hurried to her room before I can answer her question.
‘Of course I can take care of him…he’s everything to me…I won’t let anything harmed his life.’
The dance lesson seems to be forgotten. I prefer to stay all day long by his side. I wiped Yusuke’s sweaty face all the time. He must be really in pain, I thought.
“Hisato! I’m going. Take good care of your brother promise me!”
She didn’t even go upstairs to look at us both. She really is in a hurry. Damn her company.
I heard the door sound as its being closed. Then mother’s footsteps seem further and further away from my place.
For once I can’t forgive myself. I’m the one that caused him this sickness. It’s all because of my fault. I grab one of his hands and caressed it softly. It’s a bit cold, not the ices fault, the sweat are really covered his whole body.
Not so soon after, Yusuke’s body shrugging a little. I’m so surprised since I’m still holding hiss hand caressing it.
“A…aniki?” I asked.
I saw Yusuke tried to open his eyes. Hi lifted his hand to touch his face.
I asked him once again, “Aniki? Are you alright?”
“Hisa-chan…” he opened his eyes slowly, “what happened?” He asked again, “what’s with that expression?” he stopped.
He’s right; my expression is too understandable that I can’t hide my sadness from him.
“I should be the one that asked you that question, aniki…” I paused, “what happened? You suddenly collapsed on the floor right in front of mother…are you alright?” I added.
“Don’t worry…I’m alright. I just felt a bit dizzy this morning so I couldn’t stand or walk properly, and when the dizziness became horrible I can’t help but collapsed so sudden…that’s all…anyway, thanks for worrying me.”
“Aniki…don’t try to hide anything from me, you are my other half. Even when we are separated, we are still one…so I can feel at least half of your feeling. I know you tried to hide something…”
………..
Silence came…he, still lying on the bed, facing the ceiling to avoid my talk. I, once again, grab his hand and bring it to my cheek. I caressed it on my cheek, he then closed his eyes.
“Aniki…I love you…you’re the most important person for me in this world…” I said while caressing his hand on my cheek, “I can’t see you suffered…it’ll hurt me more…” he still didn’t move his face; still facing the ceiling.
“Thank you Hisa-chan…I love you too…you’re my precious brother…I’ll tell you everything someday…if I still have time…but not now, this isn’t the right time to talk…I still feel confused how to explain things to you…I can’t get rid of those thinking, can you wait for an unpredictable time for me to talk?” he moved his face; facing me. His eyes were so intense that everybody who looks into them will suddenly follow to what his saying. Those eyes hypnotized my for years.
Things are changed, this time; he is the one who caressing my cheek with his hand. I abruptly feel left out…I feel he is too far to be reached and too far to be loved. Those make my heart broken into pieces.
He loves me too…I’m happy for that…I should have happy for that
But…how can I become more and more greedy that I don’t want him to just love me as a brother…
I love him more than everything…more than anyone…
I want him to love me the way I do
I couldn’t endure my feeling any longer, but I don’t want him to be hurt. I don’t care if my heart broken into tiny pieces, but I don’t want his heart to be broken like mine…
I couldn’t keep my feeling any longer that I pass a single tear falling trough my cheek…
A/n : How’s that?…it’s kinda short-again. I should write more to make myself able to write longer chapter... (^o^)v
Hope you enjoy your reading…chapter three will come up soon
Thanks for reading…