sadness
I don't know how I should say this...
But.... I'm really... sad... really really sad and worried and... upset... and... frustrated that Tina is leaving me all over again. :(
I don't like it... sometimes I feel good cuz I get a room to myself... but then... when I go to sleep the first night she's gone from me... I can't sleep. I'm not used to the quietness... I'm used to coming in the room and either seeing her sleep and lulling myself to sleep from the sound of her breathing... or I hear her talking to Robert on the phone (something I've gotten very used to). so... with all that said... it's going to be strange with her gone. I'm going to miss her a lot. And then it worries me...
Are we going to have the same relationship we've always had when she's still gone? Will she be able to talk to me like she has been? ...
Will she even call me often? haha... knowing how busy she will be... I already know the answer to that.
Well... even though we've been through a lot... and been through lots of fighting... I want her to know that I still love her tons... and I hope she's as sad as I am that she is leaving again. You will always be in my heart, dear twinny!
Well... I might post later.
I have tons of baby sitting and things I need to do this week before school starts. Ah! *sighs* stressed out.
And I have my road test again this Fri. I'm really nervous and hope I do things right this time and don't mess up. I REALLY need my license. The day I finally get it... I'm going out with my sisters alpne to celabrate. No driving with parents! Yes! *sighs* I hope that'll happen soon. Cuz I wanna be able to drive myself to school and to work. Anywho...
I love you all...
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strenthens me."
Christina... this is for you. *whispers* it's our song! *giggles* <3
~~Life has moments, hard to describe. Feeling great and feeling allive... never coming down from this mountain we're on. Always know that we're gonna be fine... feeling great and feeling a live... never coming down from this mountain we're on. The view is so clear and it's crazy up here... life is amazing (?) with you on the ride. <3 <3
But.... I'm really... sad... really really sad and worried and... upset... and... frustrated that Tina is leaving me all over again. :(
I don't like it... sometimes I feel good cuz I get a room to myself... but then... when I go to sleep the first night she's gone from me... I can't sleep. I'm not used to the quietness... I'm used to coming in the room and either seeing her sleep and lulling myself to sleep from the sound of her breathing... or I hear her talking to Robert on the phone (something I've gotten very used to). so... with all that said... it's going to be strange with her gone. I'm going to miss her a lot. And then it worries me...
Are we going to have the same relationship we've always had when she's still gone? Will she be able to talk to me like she has been? ...
Will she even call me often? haha... knowing how busy she will be... I already know the answer to that.
Well... even though we've been through a lot... and been through lots of fighting... I want her to know that I still love her tons... and I hope she's as sad as I am that she is leaving again. You will always be in my heart, dear twinny!
Well... I might post later.
I have tons of baby sitting and things I need to do this week before school starts. Ah! *sighs* stressed out.
And I have my road test again this Fri. I'm really nervous and hope I do things right this time and don't mess up. I REALLY need my license. The day I finally get it... I'm going out with my sisters alpne to celabrate. No driving with parents! Yes! *sighs* I hope that'll happen soon. Cuz I wanna be able to drive myself to school and to work. Anywho...
I love you all...
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strenthens me."
Christina... this is for you. *whispers* it's our song! *giggles* <3
~~Life has moments, hard to describe. Feeling great and feeling allive... never coming down from this mountain we're on. Always know that we're gonna be fine... feeling great and feeling a live... never coming down from this mountain we're on. The view is so clear and it's crazy up here... life is amazing (?) with you on the ride. <3 <3