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[amarkae_sofoo]

There have been somethings in my life that arent really happy. SO! Who's life doesnt have things that arent really happy either right. Well, I just cant seem to get past one of mine.

Recently I turn 17, wooohoo right, right, well all at the same time I met my 19 year old sister who lives in Tenn with her totally awesome boyfriend Derek. It was

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[amarkae_sofoo]

Chris, you are one of my bestest (teehee) friends! You are my next door neighboor, my good friend from across the Blacktop Chris Smith! If you hadnt have moved in next door I wouldnt be the same. It wasnt that I dont want to tell you what was going on in my mind, I really did want to tell you and I had planned to. Thomas just new when I walked in the room that I had a major issue running rampant and eating away at me. Trust me I was in no way going to tell him but there really wasnt any way to get out of that situation with out alot of fuss. No one saw me chewing it over in my mind every second of that party. Chris I wanted her attention so bad you have no idea! Thats why I was so grumpy I didnt know what I did wrong. Then people started leaving and things just got so out of hand for me. I thought that people just couldnt understand and if they did I am sure they werent going to want to talk to me about it. I am not too close to anybody, I am really close to you and for some reason Thomas. I wanted you to know. So I did what I thought was best at the time before I had a crazy mental break down again. I put it where I knew you would have seen it. You are my best friend no matter if we dissagree or get into some stupid fight like we always do. We get over it. I guess what I am trying to say is that I do want you to know and I do fill like if I have a problem that I could talk to you about it. Truthfully, I felt like if I talked to any of my friends I would have put my burdon on them. I didnt want you to have to deal with that, becuase its hard to understand anyway you put it.
I am really glad you responded, thank you for attempting to help me and you did a really good job. I wouldnt have wanted to hear any of that comming from someone else.

love you too Chris
--Kaite Anne--