50 Days
I can't believe I have 50 days until my due date. This pregnancy seems to be going by so quickly, even though the last fews weeks have seemed to last longer than the beginning months. I think it's b/ I'm getting impatient and I want this baby out of me already. He is driving me crazy and I swear he never sleeps b/ I feel him moving around every minute of the day and night, and he kicks the hardest when I'm trying to go to sleep at night and in the morning when he decides it's time for me to wake up. My heartburn has gotten so bad that I'm taking Tums like they're candy. My hands, feet, and ankles are so swollen and I'm just so damn big. If I walk for too long, which for me isn't very long, my feet and knees hurt so much, and now I'm starting to get pain in my butt and thighs. I've been having a lot of back problems and it doesn't seem to matter what I am doing. The only time my back doesn't hurt is when I'm laying down on my back, which I'm really not supposed to do. It's to the point that I can't even stand at the sink to do dishes b/ I get a very sharp pain in my lower back and it hurts so bad that I can't even stand anymore. I just know that the next 7 weeks are going to go slowly just b/ I want it to be here already.
BJ's ship is going to be gone from the middle of Oct to the middle of Nov and he has to go with them. I hate it b/ I really wish he was here for me. I'm basically going to have to go through labor & delivery by myself. I have a friend down here who said she would go with me, but I don't know her that well and it isn't going to be the same as having my husband, the father of my child, there. The only hope we have is that they may let BJ fly home when I go into labor. There is a military terminal in England so he can take a flight to VA from there and it'll basically be free. If he's anywhere besides England, we'll have to pay for him to fly there b/ the military won't pay for it. Besides paying for a flight to England is cheaper than a flight to VA which we don't really have the money for. My family and BJ's family are both planning on leaving right away when I call and tell them that I'm in labor, but I have no idea when they will get here. Besides the hospital that I have to go to is on the military base in Portsmouth and no one who is coming down from PA will be able to get on since they don't have military ids or base stickers on their cars. I was thinking that my friend who will be with me can come in handy for this. She is a military spouse and my car has base stickers on it, so I figured she could drive my car there and get them in. But I don't know how many people there are going to be, so that might not be possible. I'm sure I'll think of something. I just keep hoping that when I go into labor BJ is in England and can get to the Mag terminal quickly so that he can get to VA quickly and maybe even be here before the baby comes. I just have to stay optimistic, b/ there is nothing else that I can do and I get too upset if I think about the alternative and that isn't good for the baby.
BJ's ship is going to be gone from the middle of Oct to the middle of Nov and he has to go with them. I hate it b/ I really wish he was here for me. I'm basically going to have to go through labor & delivery by myself. I have a friend down here who said she would go with me, but I don't know her that well and it isn't going to be the same as having my husband, the father of my child, there. The only hope we have is that they may let BJ fly home when I go into labor. There is a military terminal in England so he can take a flight to VA from there and it'll basically be free. If he's anywhere besides England, we'll have to pay for him to fly there b/ the military won't pay for it. Besides paying for a flight to England is cheaper than a flight to VA which we don't really have the money for. My family and BJ's family are both planning on leaving right away when I call and tell them that I'm in labor, but I have no idea when they will get here. Besides the hospital that I have to go to is on the military base in Portsmouth and no one who is coming down from PA will be able to get on since they don't have military ids or base stickers on their cars. I was thinking that my friend who will be with me can come in handy for this. She is a military spouse and my car has base stickers on it, so I figured she could drive my car there and get them in. But I don't know how many people there are going to be, so that might not be possible. I'm sure I'll think of something. I just keep hoping that when I go into labor BJ is in England and can get to the Mag terminal quickly so that he can get to VA quickly and maybe even be here before the baby comes. I just have to stay optimistic, b/ there is nothing else that I can do and I get too upset if I think about the alternative and that isn't good for the baby.