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wow i really havent wrote in this thing in a looooong time... so i just found out on thursday that im going to be having a girl!!! me and chris are wicked excited. and i just started a new job on monday working at dr fredenburgs office as a secretary which is right under dr chamberlins office. so im loving that job. the only thing thats gunna suck is telling them that im pregnant. i really dont know how thats going to go over. but not my fault there just gunna have to deal with it. but yesterday, (friday) was a good day, people were excited that it was a girl and kendra got me this beautiful card and the cutest pink baby outfit ive ever seen... i cant wait for the little one to wear it... i dont know what id do without kendra... shes the best. weve been good friends since pre-school and were only getting closer which i love because shes so easy to talk to and hang out with... and then i went to work yesterday and found out that chris got a job at sears... im soooooooooooo excited for him, and so relieved, i know ive been kinda hard on him about getting a job but i couldnt be more proud of him right now... since this summer hes taken a turn and become a completely different person, a person ive only fell more and more in love with. its so weired being in school, especially now that i dont see kelsey megan or ashley walking down the halls anymore... i miss them like crazy... i miss junior year when me and kelsey would go over megan and ashleys and smoke on the porch with her mom just talking about life, and people, and just making eachother laugh... i miss driving around with megan making trips to nashua to hang out with people, and going to the movies and out to eat. and i miss kelsey and me laughing in my hallway for like a half hour about absolutely nothing, and our girraffe and panda masks, and movie and ice cream nights.. and now i dont feel like i see them at all.. i dont want to lose contact with them, and i certainly dont want to get older and talk about all my great memories with them to my daughter when i dont even know where they are or what there doing. things like that just scare me. a lot of things scare me though, like not getting my LNA or not having a healthy baby, or not being able to graduate, or not being able to support me and this baby, or losing chris. just so many things....