last time on the amanda show......
i called mike and smoked a cigarette and i have never wanted to slap someone so bad in my entire life. he didn't actually get the fact that i was getting increasingly more and more pissed off. so i talked to him and i was like "if you do't want to spend time with me it's fine" and he was like "i'm on the phone, we'll talk about it tomorrow" and i really wanted to be like "well tough shit, we'll talk about it now, or never again,don't bother calling me" it just seems like every time i want to spend time with him lately, that i'm some wierd person who has no right to stake claim on any of his time.well fine is what i say.that's just fine, if he doesn't actually act like he appreciates me tomorrow, i think we need to have a little discussion b/c i can't do this anymore, and i won't. it's been 4 fucking years and sometimes i don't think he computes the fact that something has got to give or i'm going to go completely insane.like apeshit on his ass.but whatever, we'll see. to be continued...