i think sometimes ...
sometimes i might be too hard on dave ... cuz dave is genuinely happy to see me when he sees me. and to me that means a lot.
right now im going through a lot of absolute crap.
i have too many decisions to make right now, that if it hadnt been for my own stupidity, and complete lack of foresight, i would not have to be going through. but again i have to break one of my parent's hearts.
i hate this so much ... luckily i've lost the self destructiveness of youth, cutting, drinking, smoking, etc. no longer even an option. im proud of myself for this ... but to still have no solution to this laying in bed, writhing back and forth in tears and cries of befuddled pain. blah
cant stand it
right now im going through a lot of absolute crap.
i have too many decisions to make right now, that if it hadnt been for my own stupidity, and complete lack of foresight, i would not have to be going through. but again i have to break one of my parent's hearts.
i hate this so much ... luckily i've lost the self destructiveness of youth, cutting, drinking, smoking, etc. no longer even an option. im proud of myself for this ... but to still have no solution to this laying in bed, writhing back and forth in tears and cries of befuddled pain. blah
cant stand it