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Sometimes, nothing is fair.
I can't tell you how much everything hurts, even now.
When is this supposed to stop hurting?
I should have stuck to what I said I would do.
Do you think I didn't realize when I was fucking myself over?
Don't you think I would have stopped if I could have?
My decision to just heal myself was cut short by the only thing that could have brought all of this painfully back to the surface.
It's just cruel.
And I don't deserve any of this.
I'm tired of it.
I can't tell you how much everything hurts, even now.
When is this supposed to stop hurting?
I should have stuck to what I said I would do.
Do you think I didn't realize when I was fucking myself over?
Don't you think I would have stopped if I could have?
My decision to just heal myself was cut short by the only thing that could have brought all of this painfully back to the surface.
It's just cruel.
And I don't deserve any of this.
I'm tired of it.