Stream of Consciousness
I never walk through school with an eased mind. It seems as though I've found a way to always have to worry about something, and it's scaring me because I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life. It's nothing dangerous like suicide, but I really don't want to be on stress and anxiety pills as an adult.
Which brings me to what I should do when I grow up. Dance and music are definitely my passions, but despite how much I love them, money will always be a factor. Everyone keeps telling me to pursue what I love because I'll live a happy life if I'm doing what makes me happy. But how will I be happy if I can't make enough money to support a family and buy all the materialistic things that also make me happy. I'm no where near talented enough to actually make millions, yet I can work at it get an actual job. I don't know -- just random blurbs in my head.
Another random thought. I have this tendency to want something but when I finally have it, I don't want it anymore. It's not that I get bored of it; it's quite an enigma. "It" doesn't have to be an actual object, but right now the antecedent is a girl -- or girls rather. Am I never satisfied? I really wonder if I'm just overly selective to ensure that I don't fuck up or if I just never get satisfied. However, lately, after numerous discussions with avotresante, I've decided and discovered that settling down, flying solo, is best for now, due to a busy schedule and shortage of nice, for the lack of a better term, girls. My demand keeps shifting to the damn right. I know Ms. McCusker said that the supply takes awhile to catch up with the demand, but come on, it's been seventeen years. <3
Kate Voegele is going to be at Sactown's Arden Mall on March 22. I really hope my sister can go because apparently she's doing a free? show at the mall and then a signing session. I was going to get her CD soon, but if my sister can get me a signed one, that's even better! I guess she's not coming back on for One Tree Hill anymore because apparently she was only scheduled for six episodes. However, her appearances on One Tree Hill had a profound impact on her outbreak as a new artist. Her record is good with catchy songs and euphonic melodies.
While on the subject of One Tree Hill, the CW picked it up for a SIXTH season! No surprise but Gossip Girl is coming back soon and it's been confirmed for a second season. I can't wait to have this drama overload in my head. OTH, GG, and Skins will all contribute to this surplus of drama, but that's okay because my demand is increasing.
LAWL. Who knew econ worked with girls and drama television?
Which brings me to what I should do when I grow up. Dance and music are definitely my passions, but despite how much I love them, money will always be a factor. Everyone keeps telling me to pursue what I love because I'll live a happy life if I'm doing what makes me happy. But how will I be happy if I can't make enough money to support a family and buy all the materialistic things that also make me happy. I'm no where near talented enough to actually make millions, yet I can work at it get an actual job. I don't know -- just random blurbs in my head.
Another random thought. I have this tendency to want something but when I finally have it, I don't want it anymore. It's not that I get bored of it; it's quite an enigma. "It" doesn't have to be an actual object, but right now the antecedent is a girl -- or girls rather. Am I never satisfied? I really wonder if I'm just overly selective to ensure that I don't fuck up or if I just never get satisfied. However, lately, after numerous discussions with avotresante, I've decided and discovered that settling down, flying solo, is best for now, due to a busy schedule and shortage of nice, for the lack of a better term, girls. My demand keeps shifting to the damn right. I know Ms. McCusker said that the supply takes awhile to catch up with the demand, but come on, it's been seventeen years. <3
Kate Voegele is going to be at Sactown's Arden Mall on March 22. I really hope my sister can go because apparently she's doing a free? show at the mall and then a signing session. I was going to get her CD soon, but if my sister can get me a signed one, that's even better! I guess she's not coming back on for One Tree Hill anymore because apparently she was only scheduled for six episodes. However, her appearances on One Tree Hill had a profound impact on her outbreak as a new artist. Her record is good with catchy songs and euphonic melodies.
While on the subject of One Tree Hill, the CW picked it up for a SIXTH season! No surprise but Gossip Girl is coming back soon and it's been confirmed for a second season. I can't wait to have this drama overload in my head. OTH, GG, and Skins will all contribute to this surplus of drama, but that's okay because my demand is increasing.
LAWL. Who knew econ worked with girls and drama television?