Ups and Downs
Hohoho!
Almost forgot to post an entry. Just remembered that it's the 30th in the Philippines already!
Tonikaku...
Things are still... going here... Time is still passing and that's all what I can do for now.
There have been some ups and downs this month, and I must admit that there are more downs than the ups. The good thing about is that the ups definitely dominated the downs :)
For example, still not employed yet. And feeling ready to give up. But I guess throwing in the white towel won't do anything useful, so I guess I have t keep on going.
As I write this, I actually reminisce more good things happening that sad ones... So, that's definitely awesome!
My fangirl powers are on again for Arashi, J-doramas/movies and anime! Which keeps my life quite exciting! :) I've been in love with Arashi's latest single right now, which is Endless Game. I also finished Aiba's drama My Girl earlier this month. I just remembered it because I started watching that in the year 2011 and finally finished watching it early this month! LOL!~ Also, been watching loads of Japanese movies and I'm currently watching Shingeki no Kyojin. I had no interest at first, but my student from M school, recommended me that anime. So I guess, that one's special. :)
I didn't want to say this at first, but I guess, I'll say it anyway. I failed my Driving Test. Got a really big "DQ" and it bummed me sooooo much. I cried about it a few times. And I'm still feeling bitter about it. It's the first time I shared it to anyone (so if you're reading this, then you're lucky! LOL!~) I know that it's nothing to be sad about because my whole life doesn't depend on that. But it just feels as though I betrayed everyone around me that helped me and supported me. Most of all my mom. I mean, she's paying loads of money just for driving lessons and I failed even before I make my 2nd turn. I'm sorry. Let me rant about this, because I kept my mouth/mind shut about this because people keep telling me of what to do and shouldn't do. I really loved my brother for this. I mean, when I told him what happened, he didn't tell me, "you should've done this or this is what you should do next time." All he said is I had an unlucky day. And that sentence made me feel better....
Anyway, I also think that I failed my cheering squad about this too. Well, not only this but also the crap that I've been doing and saying to myself like I'm a failure or whatever.
Which segues to my cheering squad! Mine's Nami-jins! :) I'm just so happy that I have these special people behind me. Writing this does not give them justice. I'm really happy and proud of them and I love them very very much!
It's just awesome to know that there people who are there for me even though I'm a million miles away :)
So, I should not fail them :) I'll definitely do my best!
Oh, BTW, happy 1st anniversary to my monthly journals!
Almost forgot to post an entry. Just remembered that it's the 30th in the Philippines already!
Tonikaku...
Things are still... going here... Time is still passing and that's all what I can do for now.
There have been some ups and downs this month, and I must admit that there are more downs than the ups. The good thing about is that the ups definitely dominated the downs :)
For example, still not employed yet. And feeling ready to give up. But I guess throwing in the white towel won't do anything useful, so I guess I have t keep on going.
As I write this, I actually reminisce more good things happening that sad ones... So, that's definitely awesome!
My fangirl powers are on again for Arashi, J-doramas/movies and anime! Which keeps my life quite exciting! :) I've been in love with Arashi's latest single right now, which is Endless Game. I also finished Aiba's drama My Girl earlier this month. I just remembered it because I started watching that in the year 2011 and finally finished watching it early this month! LOL!~ Also, been watching loads of Japanese movies and I'm currently watching Shingeki no Kyojin. I had no interest at first, but my student from M school, recommended me that anime. So I guess, that one's special. :)
I didn't want to say this at first, but I guess, I'll say it anyway. I failed my Driving Test. Got a really big "DQ" and it bummed me sooooo much. I cried about it a few times. And I'm still feeling bitter about it. It's the first time I shared it to anyone (so if you're reading this, then you're lucky! LOL!~) I know that it's nothing to be sad about because my whole life doesn't depend on that. But it just feels as though I betrayed everyone around me that helped me and supported me. Most of all my mom. I mean, she's paying loads of money just for driving lessons and I failed even before I make my 2nd turn. I'm sorry. Let me rant about this, because I kept my mouth/mind shut about this because people keep telling me of what to do and shouldn't do. I really loved my brother for this. I mean, when I told him what happened, he didn't tell me, "you should've done this or this is what you should do next time." All he said is I had an unlucky day. And that sentence made me feel better....
Anyway, I also think that I failed my cheering squad about this too. Well, not only this but also the crap that I've been doing and saying to myself like I'm a failure or whatever.
Which segues to my cheering squad! Mine's Nami-jins! :) I'm just so happy that I have these special people behind me. Writing this does not give them justice. I'm really happy and proud of them and I love them very very much!
It's just awesome to know that there people who are there for me even though I'm a million miles away :)
So, I should not fail them :) I'll definitely do my best!
Oh, BTW, happy 1st anniversary to my monthly journals!