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THis morning I woke up with this feeling of unease. I just feel like something bad is gonna happen. Weird. I hope I snap out of it soon. Hopefully by the time Tim gets home. So yeah...Tim. We have been getting along so good. We have our little moments but its hard to stay mad at him. He did the sweetest thing for me the other day. He's a bit romantic, which is not something I am not used to. Ken wasnt much for that. My feelings for him are evolving. Im not sure where its going but Im happy at the moment. I dont want to speculate about our relationship. I just want to live in the moment and enjoy my bliss. I had a fun weekend. wWe threw a surprise party for Mac, and then went out to a "lounge" here. It was fun, I got trashed. What else is new lol. On another note, Ken hasnt talked to Kayla since last wednesday or thursday. I havnt made the any effort to call him, I dont feel that its my responsibility anymore. Kayla misses him like crazy, but Im sick of fighting for his attention for her. Hes all caught up in whatever, im sure he calls his gf everyday. It bugs the hell outta me. I have no control over him though. If he wants to talk to his baby, he can call. Its amazing how you can think someone really cares, and come to find out, they dont give a shit. I just feel really bad for Kay. I have no intentions of replacing her father, but hopefully whoever I end up with will be a good surrogate. She needs a daddy, and hers just isnt coming through. Well, enough about that depressing stuff. Time to finish laundry, nice clean house. Really really really clean and nice, as kayla would say :)