Yuck?

[alyflute31]

Why do I feel so yuck?  I don't like it.  Last night I went out and I went to the clarinet house cause Jourdan was going to be there.  I told my roommate to call me in an hour if I forgot to, so she could remind me to leave.  When I got there, I was enjoying myself, just talking to Jourdan and stuff.  But I was getting frustrated because I was

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[glassylunacy]

Hmm. Well, I don't really agree with Jourdan I guess. If people that matter to me would be judging me for doing something, I generally try really hard to do what they would think best. A lot of it is that I tend to trick or convince myself that I really do know what's best, but really, I don't have the distance and perspective that they do, and I usually end up feeling like a jackass in the end when I don't listen. By which I mean that I care what people think, even when it's negative and I disagree, because other people can have valid and important opinions. Just because I disagree doesn't mean I shouldn't listen.

And yes, I'm judging. I love you, Lys, but you need tough love from me sometimes. You've been frustrated and unhappy with that situation for a while now, and continuing to dip into it just because you have friends in that same circle will just make you much, much more frustrated and much, much, much, much unhappier. Take it from someone who did that exact thing about a year and a half ago. It gets uncomfortable and painful and really awkward all the time. Sometimes you just need a break from people, even if you have a new-ish friend in the group. It wasn't worth it for me at all. I mean for pete's sake, I'm going to a freaking wedding with him this summer, and I kind of want to beat myself for saying yes.

Which is to say that you should call me when you're in these situations. Now I have a phone that works.