LORD, it has been a long time since i have writen in this thing ( Read more... )

there is absolutely nothing positive going on for me right now - nothing. I am sick as a dog and feel like shit. I am still lonely. There are two people in my life that I have no hope or chance of ever having so i don't know why i bother. my friends treat me like shit. i am at the bottle of the barrel here and i have no idea how to get out. i'm not ( Read more... )

i love justin kates

you made me feel better...

Just when I gain confidence, understanding, and control of my life... Just when I think things are going to work out for the best... things don't. things are just as worse now then they were before. this is never ending. this is impossible. this sucks. i'll give up again. i won't speak. i won't spoil or ruin anything anymore. i'm done. (again)

last nights party was ridiculous! I'm not going to lie it was something short of amazing. i went out looking fabulously slutty and it was a big hit. i think it had soemthing to do with my boobs all over the place but hey, i got hit on and talked and complimented and how often does that happen? I did however get sick once (but i didn't puke) and get ( Read more... )

The other day I was with Miss Danielle Papet and we were talking about dating, relationships, and settling down. She said she is starting to feel herself accepting and enjoying the fact that she wants to settled down. She has begun to feel something that she hasn't felt before ( Read more... )

i love this song. "where do we go" by filter.. fabulous. it's on andrews myspace page and that makes me really happy because i am glad to hear that song again. it makes me really happy ( Read more... )

i ended it with mcdreamy...

i haven't seen or talked to him in a couple of days....

this has been the hardest couple of days...

repeat: this is all for the best. this is how it should be. you are better than this..

i have been home all day and all i have wanted to do is sleep. i didn't even get to do that. i was just - here. i didn't do anything but play some video games, smoke a bowl or two, hang out, watch TV, make food, and uhh.. thats about it. not much of anything right? i was supposed to do work but lately, that hasn't been working out so well.. so here ( Read more... )

i love 90's music. it is FABULOUS ( Read more... )