Heartache And Longing
You know,
I've never thought of heart ache as an actual, physical pain.
Thought it was a made up sickness that those lovey dovey bastards get when they're apart for 20 minutes.
But I was wrong.
It hurts,
And it hurts bad.
I didn't want to go to sleep last night.
I didn't want to take my eyes away from the screen.
I just wanted to stare at him, and somehow make it possible to get him back.
We sat in silence for a several minutes.
And it was the best silence I have ever experienced in my life.
I want to hug him,
And be with him,
More than anything, or anyone I have ever known.
Life is so unfair.
I'm finally happy.
Why does he have to be so far away?
Thousands of miles cannot keep me from loving him.
I'd love him even if he were on the opposite end of the world.
And I'd get there,
One way or the other.
....The car ride from the airport,
When I dropped him off, and left him there--
As he walked away..
I didn't think I would make it to the car.
I just wanted to hide in the bathroom and cry.
I just wanted to be there.
Forever.
I have never loved someone so much in my life.
And it hurts so bad that he's so far away.
I'd half-booked a flight to Texas to see him.
Just have to get the OK from work now.
37 days.
I want to hold him again.
I want to be with him.
I feel so alone,
So defenseless and pathetic right now.
I need him more than anything.
I need him.
I've never thought of heart ache as an actual, physical pain.
Thought it was a made up sickness that those lovey dovey bastards get when they're apart for 20 minutes.
But I was wrong.
It hurts,
And it hurts bad.
I didn't want to go to sleep last night.
I didn't want to take my eyes away from the screen.
I just wanted to stare at him, and somehow make it possible to get him back.
We sat in silence for a several minutes.
And it was the best silence I have ever experienced in my life.
I want to hug him,
And be with him,
More than anything, or anyone I have ever known.
Life is so unfair.
I'm finally happy.
Why does he have to be so far away?
Thousands of miles cannot keep me from loving him.
I'd love him even if he were on the opposite end of the world.
And I'd get there,
One way or the other.
....The car ride from the airport,
When I dropped him off, and left him there--
As he walked away..
I didn't think I would make it to the car.
I just wanted to hide in the bathroom and cry.
I just wanted to be there.
Forever.
I have never loved someone so much in my life.
And it hurts so bad that he's so far away.
I'd half-booked a flight to Texas to see him.
Just have to get the OK from work now.
37 days.
I want to hold him again.
I want to be with him.
I feel so alone,
So defenseless and pathetic right now.
I need him more than anything.
I need him.