jealousy, loneliness, and feeling bad
To say that I'm envious of everyone who is getting ready to go back to school is an understatement. Especially because I didn't think it would bother me so much. It mostly makes me mad that my inability to make decisions means that I screwed myself out of transferring this fall. And even though I know I'm not ready to live away from home yet, and I couldn't imagine not seeing my dog everyday, It feels so unfair. COD is the last place I would have guessed I would be right now.And even though I know I should be having "right thoughts" and be looking at the positives of the situation, I just can't. I really want to wallow in self pity.
And I miss my Grinnell Friends so much. Mostly I just wish having friends. I'm going to try and call Fiona a lot this semester. (Hopefully you have lots of minutes.) I hope that I make some friends this semester. I find not having friends horrible, but I guess that's pretty normal. Soon I will see Anga, and things will be better. I just needed to get that off my chest. I'm done now.
And I miss my Grinnell Friends so much. Mostly I just wish having friends. I'm going to try and call Fiona a lot this semester. (Hopefully you have lots of minutes.) I hope that I make some friends this semester. I find not having friends horrible, but I guess that's pretty normal. Soon I will see Anga, and things will be better. I just needed to get that off my chest. I'm done now.