Releasing this pressure that was heartache...and now the dam can break...

[alwaysidream]

Summer is coming to its close, but I still dont feel like it ever really began. Not really any lazy beach days(not that I even like the beach, but I usually go), no sleeping late, and working all the time. I didnt really mind it though, it was fulfilling in its own way, and I had plenty of good times and good memories. Funny though...back in May I never would have suspected I would come out on the other side of this summer a completely different person. Priorities changed, sure, but I thought that was it. I never suspected that I would see things in a completely different light, change my perspectives on just about everything, and possibly become a better person than I was.I guess the best and most important thing ive learned is that you can only be responsible for you.Concentrating on my own actions is more important than worrying about other peoples reactions, and the best you can hope for is for yourself. How can you really live life if youre angry or worrying about if other people are angry all the time? you can't.It's much easier to let go of anything or anyone toxic, and only surround yourself with people that contribute to your happiness. As for people that only seek to bring you down, there shouldnt be any hard feelings, because thats about their own insecurities. "Wish them well, but wish them away" And I do.

For once, I'm happier than I have been since...I can't even remember. Theres a certain comfort in realizing that petty things in this life are nothing to get depressed over....merely obstacles set to test our strength, and strengthen us for the future. I lack for nothing, and finally, thats enough. It's a good feeling.

Leaving in the morning for camp....labor day '07! and ive never been so ready for a vacation. no schedule, no plans, total freedom for a week.No regrets, no cautions, no worries, no fears...and I'm so ready.