L.o.V.e.
So Steph and I watched the 2nd season on Veronica Mars. I love that show. I think it's because it fills my Alias void... Which I'm up to season 4 watching it with Billy (he's decided that I'm not allowed to watch an episode without him. when he goes to bed, it gets turned off). Steph was right with what she said to get me to watch the first season a few months ago. There's a lot of Veronica in me. I may not have her detective skills or her relationship with her dad or as many of the happy moments she has but I do have her sarcasim, cynacisim and have experienced a lot of the same things in relationships as she has (to some degree or another but luckily and thank God I have not had to deal with the painful experience of rape). This is where my issue comes in: Logan reminds me A LOT of Billy. They both have a severe superiority complex, can be HUGE jack asses but can also be the greatest guy in the world. The cause of a shit load of their pain/attitude is caused by the pain others have caused them. The only big difference is Logan's character eventually lets people in who care about him, Billy's like a fucking castle. High, thick, brick walls with little slits just big enough to let some people just peep through. There was a night when a whole bunch of shit hit me. Billy was already in bed but I just really need a hug (or hug-type effect) and I knocked on his door (he was still awake) crawled into bed next to him and he gave me just the hug I needed. No questions asked, no attitude, no being a dick. Just hugged me. It was what I needed and I could not have gotten that from anybody else. I know I'm not involved with him but he's become some what closer to me than Robby and Robby has become more distant... Oye... He's leaving for Europe on Tuesday and won't be back til December. I don't know how it's gonna go. I don't know how well I'm gonna watch VM seeing him everytime Logan is on screen. I'm glad they cancelled Paris, i wish he didn't have to go for such a long stint. I only sleep well when he's home which means I'm gonna sleep like shit until Christmas... Damn