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Ok so I went to Flaherty's on Thursday again, as usual. Brian was working the bar, which was kinda weird. It was really busy, but not with regulars, with business men kinda ppl, it was weird. Phil, Steph and I played the game thing for a long time. Danny bought a few round of shots. His mom kept giving us weird looks and snide comments. When it died down, Brian came out to talk to us and hang out. I told him I was gonna kick his ass and he wanted to know why. I told him because I had to wear a turtle neck to work 2 days in a row because of him along with having to keep my scarf on and my hair down. He was proud of "marking" me and got up highs from Danny and Phil. They both knew why but I had to keep Phil from opening his mouth because Steph doesn't know about what happens... well she assumes but I haven't really told her... He only had one beer that night so he was so far from agressive, still flirtatous when it was me and him but far from "agressive". I made a comment about it and he said he responds and reacts, he doesn't make a move. He was all teasy and shit, which totally annoys me because I'm supposed to be the tease, not him. He's got this smile... I told him he's gotta stop smiling like that... I mean, he's always had that smile but... it's probably all in my head. We were talking in the kitchen and I said something to compliment him and he told me if I was going to lie to him, tell him I love him. I told him I loved him, I wanna marry him and have his babies... It was funny. I don't love him but I do care about him, more than a friend. Not that any of that matters cuz I don't think he'll ever make a move. I don't even know if he feels the same about me or if just a "convienance" type thing... i don't know, or if i'll ever know... Just have to take it for what it is and enjoy it... as much as I can... I told him that he should call me, which he replied that he doesn't call people, which I knew. He told me I could call him which I told him I don't call people, I text them but I know he can't respond to texts. That's a Catch 22, conundrum, crossroads, whatever.... I'm screwed