Well, don't really understand the outline of the list, but good stuff regardless.
I have to be honest (not that I'm not when I don't have to be, although you say everyone lies, and I agree), I just recently found your LJ, and was really moved by the deep posts you took the time to write. Also, I almost didn't post here because of this separation that I felt time had put between us. We just didn't really hang out with the same people, and we took different paths.
I remember when your family moved into the neighborhood, just before school was about to start, and I thought you and Jackie were the coolest girls I'd ever met. Of course Brian was cool, too. And the only time I came to your house and went inside, I saw that you had a keyboard in your room, and I thought, "No way. She plays an instrument! That's so cool!"
But I had no idea that you were already graduating, and, on top of that, moving to California. That's incredible! But I can see how the situation might cause you to feel torn. Now, I'm not trying to say in any way that I somehow suddenly "know you," but I can somewhat relate with the choice you have to make. The summer before senior year started, I had the chance to move to Korea for the summer, and live with my uncle, whom I'd only met once (when I was 3). Actually, my dad had made that decision, I was just expected to follow it. At first, all I could think about was the friends I was leaving behind, so much so that I couldn't sleep for the first couple nights. But after a little while, I started to involve myself there, in the school I was attending, with the people I was meeting, and all of a sudden, things began to click in a way I had thought only possible back home. I learned a whole lot about my family's history that I hadn't known before, and made some incredible friends (who I still keep in contact with, even after 4 years, and 10,000 miles between us). So, if you decide to move to LA (which it sounds like you've decided), go with a smile on your face and in your heart. Yes, you'll miss the friends you won't see, and those friends who matter will miss you just as much. So don't ever feel like you won't be missed. I mean, we haven't really had much conversation past "How've you been?" in the past...three years? And yet, for the past year that I've lived in Tampa, every time I drive or walk past that house at the far corner of Rocky Ledge (not really a corner since it's a big circle), you and Jackie and Brian always, always come to mind, and every time I wonder how your lives are going, and if you're doing well (i.e.: You're an aunt?! When did this happen?).
I'm sad to hear that you're moving, because it seems like I've lost out on the opportunity to have a great friend in you, and I regret not being able to make our friendship last after that first year. But, if someone who hasn't had a conversation with you in three years is going to miss you this much, just think how much more your friends that matter are going to miss you! And I know you'll find someone who cares as deeply about those around him as you do about those around you. Again, I'm sorry if I came across at times during this post as someone who thinks they "know you," but I really will miss you when you move, but I hope you'll keep us updated on your life, either on here, or some other venue. May the Lord Almighty grant you His strength, wisdom, and, above all, peace in your decisions as you further your life.
Peter Chang
P.S. Keep in touch. And I'm not just saying that like people writing in your high school yearbook. Really, keep us updated. We care.
I have to be honest (not that I'm not when I don't have to be, although you say everyone lies, and I agree), I just recently found your LJ, and was really moved by the deep posts you took the time to write. Also, I almost didn't post here because of this separation that I felt time had put between us. We just didn't really hang out with the same people, and we took different paths.
I remember when your family moved into the neighborhood, just before school was about to start, and I thought you and Jackie were the coolest girls I'd ever met. Of course Brian was cool, too. And the only time I came to your house and went inside, I saw that you had a keyboard in your room, and I thought, "No way. She plays an instrument! That's so cool!"
But I had no idea that you were already graduating, and, on top of that, moving to California. That's incredible! But I can see how the situation might cause you to feel torn. Now, I'm not trying to say in any way that I somehow suddenly "know you," but I can somewhat relate with the choice you have to make. The summer before senior year started, I had the chance to move to Korea for the summer, and live with my uncle, whom I'd only met once (when I was 3). Actually, my dad had made that decision, I was just expected to follow it. At first, all I could think about was the friends I was leaving behind, so much so that I couldn't sleep for the first couple nights. But after a little while, I started to involve myself there, in the school I was attending, with the people I was meeting, and all of a sudden, things began to click in a way I had thought only possible back home. I learned a whole lot about my family's history that I hadn't known before, and made some incredible friends (who I still keep in contact with, even after 4 years, and 10,000 miles between us). So, if you decide to move to LA (which it sounds like you've decided), go with a smile on your face and in your heart. Yes, you'll miss the friends you won't see, and those friends who matter will miss you just as much. So don't ever feel like you won't be missed. I mean, we haven't really had much conversation past "How've you been?" in the past...three years? And yet, for the past year that I've lived in Tampa, every time I drive or walk past that house at the far corner of Rocky Ledge (not really a corner since it's a big circle), you and Jackie and Brian always, always come to mind, and every time I wonder how your lives are going, and if you're doing well (i.e.: You're an aunt?! When did this happen?).
I'm sad to hear that you're moving, because it seems like I've lost out on the opportunity to have a great friend in you, and I regret not being able to make our friendship last after that first year. But, if someone who hasn't had a conversation with you in three years is going to miss you this much, just think how much more your friends that matter are going to miss you! And I know you'll find someone who cares as deeply about those around him as you do about those around you. Again, I'm sorry if I came across at times during this post as someone who thinks they "know you," but I really will miss you when you move, but I hope you'll keep us updated on your life, either on here, or some other venue. May the Lord Almighty grant you His strength, wisdom, and, above all, peace in your decisions as you further your life.
Peter Chang
P.S. Keep in touch. And I'm not just saying that like people writing in your high school yearbook. Really, keep us updated. We care.
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