Disappointed
Disappointed
IM disappointed in myself for many reasons today. The fact that my NO isn’t NO in my mind and im myself is disappointing to me. I’ve learned that when it comes to me and certain people, it will never work because I am just not physically attracted to them. I used to think it a vain thing to think that but I realized this weekend that im just not into certain body types and although there are exceptions to every rule, for the most part I am not into certain shapes. And I guess that comes with time and learning what our preferences are. I learned a good lesson this week and think it may be life changing and mind altering. I’ve learnt that the mind is so powerful, it can trick itself into believing one thing or another. I’ve also come up with this little meditation that seems to be screaming its influence in my life. I find the only person that can keep us from becoming a new and better person, is our old and comfortable person. It brings to mind the change of a caterpillar to a butterfly. A lot of change happens in that cocoon, but to me it seems that the hardest struggles is the actually breaking out of the cocoon. All the growth has taken shape but it’s the breaking forth into that new and “better” creature that is so hard. God is it hard! So the question is how do we embrace the new person while remaining true to the old person? How do we leave the waste behind while not losing the heritage of ourselves? How do we gain our wings while remaining grounded?
IM disappointed in myself for many reasons today. The fact that my NO isn’t NO in my mind and im myself is disappointing to me. I’ve learned that when it comes to me and certain people, it will never work because I am just not physically attracted to them. I used to think it a vain thing to think that but I realized this weekend that im just not into certain body types and although there are exceptions to every rule, for the most part I am not into certain shapes. And I guess that comes with time and learning what our preferences are. I learned a good lesson this week and think it may be life changing and mind altering. I’ve learnt that the mind is so powerful, it can trick itself into believing one thing or another. I’ve also come up with this little meditation that seems to be screaming its influence in my life. I find the only person that can keep us from becoming a new and better person, is our old and comfortable person. It brings to mind the change of a caterpillar to a butterfly. A lot of change happens in that cocoon, but to me it seems that the hardest struggles is the actually breaking out of the cocoon. All the growth has taken shape but it’s the breaking forth into that new and “better” creature that is so hard. God is it hard! So the question is how do we embrace the new person while remaining true to the old person? How do we leave the waste behind while not losing the heritage of ourselves? How do we gain our wings while remaining grounded?