hell
so i'm not having a good day. at all. i'm thinking about visiting the one person who is the worst for my mental and emotional health. i just found out that one of the main reasons i came here isn't valid. it kills me, because i have enough of an issue dealing with my choices when i had all the facts and know i made the right choice. now the facts are different. and i know things will get better when the semester starts, but the lab stuff i'm doing isn't quite what i was hoping for and i'm upset that i may have missed the perfect lab chance because i was misinformed. and i'm ridiculously homesick because i've been bored and a little unhappy and now i'm missing july 4th at home which is better than christmas. i'm missing pyro christmas! i need something to keep me busy and cheer me up. -i shall ponder