Belief is half of being
I close my eyes so I can see
I tie my arms, to be free.
We throw down.
Alright, I know many many of you guys that read my journal are already extremme Vonnegut fans, but I want to talk about one of his books and my amazing experience with it. Today I finished reading The Sirens of Titan. Not only is this my first Vonnegut book, and I took a long time to read it because I always take my time, but it was one of the best books I've ever read. Yes, it is science fiction, but the book has SO many wonderful meanings and messages about philsophy and life, it's just all beauty and genius. It makes you love life and everything about it, and makes you appreciate everything you have. This put me in the greatest mood ever. Only until ofcourse, I get mocked by my friends for having to miss band practice today because I have to go to a trial at teen court. I already have to serve 50 hours and do all this other extra shit they make me do, it's punishment enough, the last thing I need is you guys talking down to me. I seriously hate when people talk down to me, as if they have any right to judge me, who I am, or my decisions. I get extremmely angry over this, and I know I shouldn't get angry. I should try and be more calm about it. I just really fucking hate it.
Okay so today after school, instead of going to band practice, I had to go to a teen court hearing. Basically the exact same thing as a trial, except for ex-criminal teenagers as the jury. I had a real judge look at me in the face, ask me questions, and the jury questioned me about my intent and such. Before the "trial", I was extremmely shooken up and nervous. Because what I did and said in there was going to affect how much free time I had in the future, and how much crap they sentence me. All the time before that I was in the crappiest mood, because of the whole situation. But once I got in the court, I was so calm, and I felt so smooth. I had this wave of coolness flow down my spine, and I did everything perfectly. I said everything without stuttering, was completely honest, kept the best tone of voice and fluffed it up a bit to make it seem like I was really sorry, and they gave me a light sentence. Light compared to the possibilities of the radicals of the court, anyway. I have to finish my 50 hours, continue calling this lady twice a week to check in, complete jury duty 4 times in teen court, do a bunch of packets about crime and peer pressure, make a public apology in court to my mother (did it), and not communicate with the co-defendents (yeah right.)
I have to say that Fugazi has become one of my favorite bands of all time. Their style of writing has got to be some of the best I've ever heard in my life and I could listen to their unique growls of vocals and melodic rhythm sections for hours on end and still be dancing. Also, Sting and the Police have earned their respect, on a slightly lower level than Fugazi, as one of my favorite bands. It's all just such great music.
I've been feeling so empowered lately. I feel so good about everything and feel like I can accomplish anything. I dunno, life is so vibrant and full of greatness. I love just laughing and smiling at everything.
I tie my arms, to be free.
We throw down.
Alright, I know many many of you guys that read my journal are already extremme Vonnegut fans, but I want to talk about one of his books and my amazing experience with it. Today I finished reading The Sirens of Titan. Not only is this my first Vonnegut book, and I took a long time to read it because I always take my time, but it was one of the best books I've ever read. Yes, it is science fiction, but the book has SO many wonderful meanings and messages about philsophy and life, it's just all beauty and genius. It makes you love life and everything about it, and makes you appreciate everything you have. This put me in the greatest mood ever. Only until ofcourse, I get mocked by my friends for having to miss band practice today because I have to go to a trial at teen court. I already have to serve 50 hours and do all this other extra shit they make me do, it's punishment enough, the last thing I need is you guys talking down to me. I seriously hate when people talk down to me, as if they have any right to judge me, who I am, or my decisions. I get extremmely angry over this, and I know I shouldn't get angry. I should try and be more calm about it. I just really fucking hate it.
Okay so today after school, instead of going to band practice, I had to go to a teen court hearing. Basically the exact same thing as a trial, except for ex-criminal teenagers as the jury. I had a real judge look at me in the face, ask me questions, and the jury questioned me about my intent and such. Before the "trial", I was extremmely shooken up and nervous. Because what I did and said in there was going to affect how much free time I had in the future, and how much crap they sentence me. All the time before that I was in the crappiest mood, because of the whole situation. But once I got in the court, I was so calm, and I felt so smooth. I had this wave of coolness flow down my spine, and I did everything perfectly. I said everything without stuttering, was completely honest, kept the best tone of voice and fluffed it up a bit to make it seem like I was really sorry, and they gave me a light sentence. Light compared to the possibilities of the radicals of the court, anyway. I have to finish my 50 hours, continue calling this lady twice a week to check in, complete jury duty 4 times in teen court, do a bunch of packets about crime and peer pressure, make a public apology in court to my mother (did it), and not communicate with the co-defendents (yeah right.)
I have to say that Fugazi has become one of my favorite bands of all time. Their style of writing has got to be some of the best I've ever heard in my life and I could listen to their unique growls of vocals and melodic rhythm sections for hours on end and still be dancing. Also, Sting and the Police have earned their respect, on a slightly lower level than Fugazi, as one of my favorite bands. It's all just such great music.
I've been feeling so empowered lately. I feel so good about everything and feel like I can accomplish anything. I dunno, life is so vibrant and full of greatness. I love just laughing and smiling at everything.