I hate this
I feel so helpless....I feel like I should be with her right now...but instead I'm sitting here...She was like a grandma to me too....I loved her....I hate losing people...especially this way....listening to Torey and her great grandma talking last night....it just made me feel bad...everytime I tried to kill myself....I never thought of the aftermath...of how my loved ones would feel when I'm gone....I didn't know she was unhappy....she always looked so happy when I saw her...I'm never going to see her again...