Teen Girl Squad
Well, just me.
I have a crush on every boy.
No, just Nathan. Sometimes I want to tell him, but I probably shouldn't. I love that he loves Jesus the way he does, but I worry that he might be too much intellectual and not enough believer. Probably not though, hearing him talk about Texas. If he can work alongside Charismatic Pentecostals and still just spread the Gospel and not argue with them about predestination, then I suppose we're on the right track.
I am so frustrated that tonight was my last tuesday at his house, and he played Zelda almost the whole time. I just wanted to talk to him and spend time with him, since I leave for bootcamp in 7 (well I guess 6 now) days. I want to tell him how I feel, but I'm scared I'm not nearly sincere enough to do that. I was contemplating how serious I am though, and at the thought of driving to the courthouse and marrying him, I had no major complaints. Now that I think about it though, I think that I would wait until after bootcamp. Also I would want him to get to know my family, for me to get to know his, and give time to involve them in every decision we made. But there is no we, there is no us. I'll just keep cleaning up his kitchen every time I go over. I hope it makes him happy.
Hmmm. There's an idea. I wonder what his love language is? He is very polite, very serving, so perhaps that is it. On the other hand, he didn't seem terribly interested when I was cleaning his kitchen. I think that he does appreciate quality time though. Whenever we talk on the phone, we spend quite some time doing it. We've spent over two hours before. Also when we do get some time to ourselves, we have long conversations. I think he values that. He does seem to express his appreciation when we do spend time together.
Time will tell. When I get back from the Navy, I think things will start to show their true colors. Maybe I won't be attracted to him anymore. Maybe he'll have found a girl. Maybe I will have found a guy.
I really do want to grow up now. I want to get married. I want to have children. I'm barely 19, which is not much of anything but maybe it's enough to start thinking about it. I just want to have my mom around for my kids to grow up with an amazing grandma.
I have a crush on every boy.
No, just Nathan. Sometimes I want to tell him, but I probably shouldn't. I love that he loves Jesus the way he does, but I worry that he might be too much intellectual and not enough believer. Probably not though, hearing him talk about Texas. If he can work alongside Charismatic Pentecostals and still just spread the Gospel and not argue with them about predestination, then I suppose we're on the right track.
I am so frustrated that tonight was my last tuesday at his house, and he played Zelda almost the whole time. I just wanted to talk to him and spend time with him, since I leave for bootcamp in 7 (well I guess 6 now) days. I want to tell him how I feel, but I'm scared I'm not nearly sincere enough to do that. I was contemplating how serious I am though, and at the thought of driving to the courthouse and marrying him, I had no major complaints. Now that I think about it though, I think that I would wait until after bootcamp. Also I would want him to get to know my family, for me to get to know his, and give time to involve them in every decision we made. But there is no we, there is no us. I'll just keep cleaning up his kitchen every time I go over. I hope it makes him happy.
Hmmm. There's an idea. I wonder what his love language is? He is very polite, very serving, so perhaps that is it. On the other hand, he didn't seem terribly interested when I was cleaning his kitchen. I think that he does appreciate quality time though. Whenever we talk on the phone, we spend quite some time doing it. We've spent over two hours before. Also when we do get some time to ourselves, we have long conversations. I think he values that. He does seem to express his appreciation when we do spend time together.
Time will tell. When I get back from the Navy, I think things will start to show their true colors. Maybe I won't be attracted to him anymore. Maybe he'll have found a girl. Maybe I will have found a guy.
I really do want to grow up now. I want to get married. I want to have children. I'm barely 19, which is not much of anything but maybe it's enough to start thinking about it. I just want to have my mom around for my kids to grow up with an amazing grandma.