Waiting
Im fine....Im fine. I think or atleast I feel like Im back up to content. Im now thinking, instead of letting emotions take me. It is more duller for me, but I have no choice. Im learning, but one can learn and practice all they like. But when the moment comes everything is forgotten, all that counts is how much YOU have changed. Besides that, candles are my companions for now. They are a little bit better then nothing, its not something I looked forward to. Just makes me feel better then I light them. But when I look at them....I see how long they got before they run out. I hate thinking about it, that they cant go on forever.They remind me that nothing is forever. That there will be a moment of coldness, before I can get more.Oh well. I am just waiting. Waiting for myself to grow up. Waiting for something to happen.