Keaton, this will not help the situation, but i feel it must be said.
you are definately doing this for attention. as much as you will hate me saying that, it is true. you agree with me, that just dissapear, but who keeps coming back? now true i did make this post and the other one to respond to people. but the difference is i do not care what happens to me anymore. i check peoples profiles because i really care for people, but i have no self confidence, no interest in keeping contact. you do this for attention, why do you think i wouldnt reply for so long to you guys. and you messages, "im gonna go cut myself and play music" seriously keaton, if you think that helps you dissapear, your very mistaken. keeping contact, no, thats not dissapearing. theres a reason why i just dont reply. it keeps me off of peoples minds... or at least when i just stop showing up. i dont want peoples help. it just makes me mad, everyone does it, i do it too i can say, everyone is always there only and only when you feel suicidal. i mean hell, i now am getting phone calls... people try to make plans with me. why couldnt you guys do this like its suppose to, a more common thing, not just when its mandatory and urgent.
keaton, i know you do have problems, but its who you are that keeps you here online, and keeps you here on livejournal. you want companions and you want attention, you want people to care about you. and your "time to cut my life away" comments get you your attention.
im not doing this to piss you off, cause you are my closest friend. im saying this because i know you man... i know why you do this. and i know and i feel your pain. im not calling you a fake. i know you wish ill of youself. and i understand that. but if you really wanted to dissapear, duh, do like i do. i check on here like everyday when i can quickly jump on, do i post? no, i dont want people to think about me.... which this message is really gonna defeat me there.
and ungoing, in regards to your religious beliefs, i dont think God is the way to be happy. no let me rephrase that, God is not for everyone. yes, God is not for everyone. each person must find their own source of protection, their own path to tranquility, their own sancurary, but this does not mean it IS God. God works for alot of people, but not everyone. realize that please. not everyone will believe in God, or christianity, or any other religion. people will believe what they want to believe. and because of that, God is not for everyone. since youve asked me about what i think about God, i figure you mean Christianity. now i cant say ive read the whole thing of the holy bible, but i personally feel that its just a story. i am a storywiter, an author, and i just feel that its one of the oldest stories created ever. and that its history dates so far back, that people dont know whether or not to believe it. now it could be true, how could you know for sure. now remember i never really read it. so i dont know. im just saying, to me its just a really old story, and it is something that you must think if its true or not.
now, keaton, im still your friend and all, but it bothers me to see you rant on about how you are just gonna go cut yourself, fuck the world and forget everyone, yet you constantly post on here and get on AIM to talk. or, wait for someone to IM you, giving you the moment you want, of attention, and just go on about how horrible everything is.
and as i said before, i dont post on here, i dont want to be noticed, to be remembered. but i do read about you guys, cause i care for people, i just dont care for myself. so when i say i dont care or im sick of everything, realize this. i will forever care for people. its my nature, my "i dont care anymores" dont relate to people. cause i do care.... but just, why do you guys persist to give me attention when i want to disappear and when i get my suicidal tendacies? why do you guys only care when i reach the end of the bottomless hole?
ungoing, i appreciate that you care, but just let me go. you dont know my life well enough to say, "well, what about your parents" "what about....." it just dont matter to me. just people, LET ME GO!
you are definately doing this for attention. as much as you will hate me saying that, it is true. you agree with me, that just dissapear, but who keeps coming back? now true i did make this post and the other one to respond to people. but the difference is i do not care what happens to me anymore. i check peoples profiles because i really care for people, but i have no self confidence, no interest in keeping contact. you do this for attention, why do you think i wouldnt reply for so long to you guys. and you messages, "im gonna go cut myself and play music" seriously keaton, if you think that helps you dissapear, your very mistaken. keeping contact, no, thats not dissapearing. theres a reason why i just dont reply. it keeps me off of peoples minds... or at least when i just stop showing up. i dont want peoples help. it just makes me mad, everyone does it, i do it too i can say, everyone is always there only and only when you feel suicidal. i mean hell, i now am getting phone calls... people try to make plans with me. why couldnt you guys do this like its suppose to, a more common thing, not just when its mandatory and urgent.
keaton, i know you do have problems, but its who you are that keeps you here online, and keeps you here on livejournal. you want companions and you want attention, you want people to care about you. and your "time to cut my life away" comments get you your attention.
im not doing this to piss you off, cause you are my closest friend. im saying this because i know you man... i know why you do this. and i know and i feel your pain. im not calling you a fake. i know you wish ill of youself. and i understand that. but if you really wanted to dissapear, duh, do like i do. i check on here like everyday when i can quickly jump on, do i post? no, i dont want people to think about me.... which this message is really gonna defeat me there.
and ungoing, in regards to your religious beliefs, i dont think God is the way to be happy. no let me rephrase that, God is not for everyone. yes, God is not for everyone. each person must find their own source of protection, their own path to tranquility, their own sancurary, but this does not mean it IS God. God works for alot of people, but not everyone. realize that please. not everyone will believe in God, or christianity, or any other religion. people will believe what they want to believe. and because of that, God is not for everyone. since youve asked me about what i think about God, i figure you mean Christianity. now i cant say ive read the whole thing of the holy bible, but i personally feel that its just a story. i am a storywiter, an author, and i just feel that its one of the oldest stories created ever. and that its history dates so far back, that people dont know whether or not to believe it. now it could be true, how could you know for sure. now remember i never really read it. so i dont know. im just saying, to me its just a really old story, and it is something that you must think if its true or not.
now, keaton, im still your friend and all, but it bothers me to see you rant on about how you are just gonna go cut yourself, fuck the world and forget everyone, yet you constantly post on here and get on AIM to talk. or, wait for someone to IM you, giving you the moment you want, of attention, and just go on about how horrible everything is.
and as i said before, i dont post on here, i dont want to be noticed, to be remembered. but i do read about you guys, cause i care for people, i just dont care for myself. so when i say i dont care or im sick of everything, realize this. i will forever care for people. its my nature, my "i dont care anymores" dont relate to people. cause i do care.... but just, why do you guys persist to give me attention when i want to disappear and when i get my suicidal tendacies? why do you guys only care when i reach the end of the bottomless hole?
ungoing, i appreciate that you care, but just let me go. you dont know my life well enough to say, "well, what about your parents" "what about....." it just dont matter to me. just people, LET ME GO!
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