You know you can call me by my name any time, whether it’s Claire or Bear or hey, bitch.
I’ve got a reading list here on LJ, sure, but there are certain people who I consider friends. People whom I worry about when I don’t see posts from them, or when I see posts that aren’t happy. Unfortunately for you, you’re one of them.
I’d like to imagine that one day we will meet, even though it’s unlikely what with this tiny stretch of water between us. And whilst I’m not always around on LJ, I’ll always have time for you if you need someone to listen. I’m not guaranteeing the quality of any advice offered, though. Do you have my e-mail? If you don’t, it’s yrarth{at}gmail{dot}com.
And right! There are people that, when I don't see them posting on LJ OR leaving comments with other people, I get worried about! but I feel really awkward saying "Hey, Name, I hope everything's okay with you. I'm worried." Mainly because, while I feel certain things, I'm HORRID at expressing them. And since I'm so bad at that, they don't know, and therefore think my worry is flippant. NOT SO.
maybe I'm just a stilted personality. Everything for me is very formal and distant and dammit! I wanna have closer LJ friends, dagummit. (southern cuss word)
And yes! I'd love to have you show me around your home town! OMGoodness. I'd so meet you for coffee - or hot cocoa in my case - and we could get all fannish or not and have a blast. ♥ and *hugs* *sigh* I wish there was html &hugs; and whenever someone typed it into a reply, the OP would immediately be cuddled up in warm invisible arms and feel right and properly hugged.
It's interesting that you bring this up, because I've been wondering if perhaps it's time to let Nebula go. It's so weird, I've gotten so attached to my online pseudonym that when people say the world 'nebula', I perk up and almost respond. LOL
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Yeah, I shortened your screen name to Nebs so long ago I don't even remember. way before I learned your real name - which is probably why I stuck with Nebs for you. It just sort of fits you, ya know? Like, it's short and quirky and sprited, just like you! :D
And I've really enjoyed getting to know Nebs, even more so than 'Nebula' because Nebula is that chick who writes Raising a Big Brother, but Nebs is a dance teacher, an epileptic who's fighting, a friend, a sister, a student, a writer. You know? Getting to know you has been aweometastic. I just wonder has it been reciprocated? That's what I'd like to work more on. Sharing more of myself, so that I can feel like I've EARNED being able to call people names ;).
VA is not THAT far away. That's like...a weeklong vacay? maybe in the summer? And it's kinda cold down here in FLA too, honey. SNOW! Not, you know, FEET of snow, but SNOW!
FYI, when my bestie starts IMing me on yahoo, she uses the DUUUUDE! audible. It's a little guy with a baseball cap on backward, a goofy smile and sorta vacant eyes - just like a skater dude. I respond to that DUUUUDE! with a very cool, laid back gamer guy who's sort of leaning back and he nods his beanie clad head and says, 'Sup?
And it's not SO MUCH being able to use real names as it is about having that shorthand, that comfort, that easiness and trust. I tend to be very reserved nowadays, not so much afraid of sharing as insecure about how curious or interested people are in me. So, because I'm not the sharing type, I don't think it really fair to presume the closeness that comes with familiarity. If that makes sense.
It's something I'm going to try to work on this year. A resolution if you will. Perhaps being more open here will lead to being more open in the real world and I'll MEET PEOPLE! OMG. LOL!
And Yay! New Year's Card! Whoot! did you get my christmas card?
I need to make new friends too. I just don't get out any more with anyone and do anything.
I did get your card. Thanks very much. I am lame when it comes to cards. Hubby decided a few years ago that New Years cards work better. I think he's right.
well, if anyone slips and uses my real name in my LJ, I delete the comment, LOL, but that's because I keep my personal stuff... personal. I hope that the day will come where I no longer feel like that's necessary, because OMG it's a lot of work keeping everything so close to the vest, and I'm TIRED. But still scared.
See, you're one of the one's whose name I have no idea! but I feel like I know you anyway. Like authoressnebula - who is now forever Nebs in my head - your name's been shortened in my head too. You're WG. ;)
And it's totally cool that you don't want your real name out there, I get that. :) I was the same way when I first got online and started chatting. But over time I let slip where I was, what I do. Vaguely, but still, I was worried about putting myself out there in the ether.
I've been really enjoying getting to know you and seeing more of your personality. Makes me want to put more of myself out there. More of who I am and how I feel, not so much what I do or where I live.
I don't use real names even when I know them, not even in private emails usually, because I don't want to out anyone and because the LJ name feels as real as any name. But anyone's welcome to call me Jane not janedavitt! The only time I ever got ticked off was when someone in a kerfuffle referred to me as 'Davitt' and snootily said that in academic circles referring to people by their last name was the done thing. ::rolls eyes::
I swap a couple of cards at Christmas and a gift on rare occasions and I've met up with some people in rl, but not as often as I'd like.
Basically, I guess what I'm saying is that what happens here on LJ is great and anything else is frosting :-)
Jane Davitt is your real name? 0_0. I didn't know. I thought it was a pseudonym. LOL!
And my...frustration? No. it's not really frustration, it's more like, "I want what they have" but not in a mean way. I want to have the easiness and comfort level. Like, you and WG share. I'd like to be able to say, "That's my friend from LJ," not just, "Oh. She's one of my flisties." Because the former seems...deeper, maybe? And I know the lack of that is mostly me, because I'm not so much an open book, and I really don't share a lot about myself. I just find it hard to believe that people are interested in anything I have to say, so I just keep it to myself. I'm kinda boring, So I spare others the boredom! lol.
But I'm going to try to be more outgoing, talking to people more often, sharing more. that kind of thing. See if I can't cultivate me some LJ friends, not just 'flisties'.
That's too funny that you thought it wasn't my name! I guess it's like hiding in plain sight....
If I were to do it all again, I'd have picked a new name but I was young and innocent and used my real name from the moment I went online in 1997 and didn't want to lose readers by choosing a new one.
And everyone in rl knows I write gay erotica so it's not like I've got anything to hide.
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You know you can call me by my name any time, whether it’s Claire or Bear or hey, bitch.
I’ve got a reading list here on LJ, sure, but there are certain people who I consider friends. People whom I worry about when I don’t see posts from them, or when I see posts that aren’t happy. Unfortunately for you, you’re one of them.
I’d like to imagine that one day we will meet, even though it’s unlikely what with this tiny stretch of water between us. And whilst I’m not always around on LJ, I’ll always have time for you if you need someone to listen. I’m not guaranteeing the quality of any advice offered, though. Do you have my e-mail? If you don’t, it’s yrarth{at}gmail{dot}com.
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I just didn't want to presume.
And right! There are people that, when I don't see them posting on LJ OR leaving comments with other people, I get worried about! but I feel really awkward saying "Hey, Name, I hope everything's okay with you. I'm worried." Mainly because, while I feel certain things, I'm HORRID at expressing them. And since I'm so bad at that, they don't know, and therefore think my worry is flippant. NOT SO.
maybe I'm just a stilted personality. Everything for me is very formal and distant and dammit! I wanna have closer LJ friends, dagummit. (southern cuss word)
And yes! I'd love to have you show me around your home town! OMGoodness. I'd so meet you for coffee - or hot cocoa in my case - and we could get all fannish or not and have a blast. ♥ and *hugs* *sigh* I wish there was html &hugs; and whenever someone typed it into a reply, the OP would immediately be cuddled up in warm invisible arms and feel right and properly hugged.
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And I've really enjoyed getting to know Nebs, even more so than 'Nebula' because Nebula is that chick who writes Raising a Big Brother, but Nebs is a dance teacher, an epileptic who's fighting, a friend, a sister, a student, a writer. You know? Getting to know you has been aweometastic. I just wonder has it been reciprocated? That's what I'd like to work more on. Sharing more of myself, so that I can feel like I've EARNED being able to call people names ;).
VA is not THAT far away. That's like...a weeklong vacay? maybe in the summer? And it's kinda cold down here in FLA too, honey. SNOW! Not, you know, FEET of snow, but SNOW!
♥ *hugs*
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FYI, when my bestie starts IMing me on yahoo, she uses the DUUUUDE! audible. It's a little guy with a baseball cap on backward, a goofy smile and sorta vacant eyes - just like a skater dude. I respond to that DUUUUDE! with a very cool, laid back gamer guy who's sort of leaning back and he nods his beanie clad head and says, 'Sup?
And it's not SO MUCH being able to use real names as it is about having that shorthand, that comfort, that easiness and trust. I tend to be very reserved nowadays, not so much afraid of sharing as insecure about how curious or interested people are in me. So, because I'm not the sharing type, I don't think it really fair to presume the closeness that comes with familiarity. If that makes sense.
It's something I'm going to try to work on this year. A resolution if you will. Perhaps being more open here will lead to being more open in the real world and I'll MEET PEOPLE! OMG. LOL!
And Yay! New Year's Card! Whoot! did you get my christmas card?
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I did get your card. Thanks very much. I am lame when it comes to cards. Hubby decided a few years ago that New Years cards work better. I think he's right.
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*Squish*
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And it's totally cool that you don't want your real name out there, I get that. :) I was the same way when I first got online and started chatting. But over time I let slip where I was, what I do. Vaguely, but still, I was worried about putting myself out there in the ether.
I've been really enjoying getting to know you and seeing more of your personality. Makes me want to put more of myself out there. More of who I am and how I feel, not so much what I do or where I live.
♥
*is squished and squishes back*
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I swap a couple of cards at Christmas and a gift on rare occasions and I've met up with some people in rl, but not as often as I'd like.
Basically, I guess what I'm saying is that what happens here on LJ is great and anything else is frosting :-)
::hugs you::
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And my...frustration? No. it's not really frustration, it's more like, "I want what they have" but not in a mean way. I want to have the easiness and comfort level. Like, you and WG share. I'd like to be able to say, "That's my friend from LJ," not just, "Oh. She's one of my flisties." Because the former seems...deeper, maybe? And I know the lack of that is mostly me, because I'm not so much an open book, and I really don't share a lot about myself. I just find it hard to believe that people are interested in anything I have to say, so I just keep it to myself. I'm kinda boring, So I spare others the boredom! lol.
But I'm going to try to be more outgoing, talking to people more often, sharing more. that kind of thing. See if I can't cultivate me some LJ friends, not just 'flisties'.
*hugs back hard!*
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If I were to do it all again, I'd have picked a new name but I was young and innocent and used my real name from the moment I went online in 1997 and didn't want to lose readers by choosing a new one.
And everyone in rl knows I write gay erotica so it's not like I've got anything to hide.
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