The Life I Had Before (13A/?)
Title: The Life I Had Before
Author: Charlotte (altogingenting )
Beta: The always incredible ms_belle10 , thank you so much! You are fantastic!
Pairing: Belldom
Rating: PG
Summary: Can they see past their pasts, embrace the present and look forward to the future?
Warnings: This chapter: tiny bit of language
Feedback: Highly appreciated
Disclaimer: I don’t own Muse or anyone/anything related to them, this is pure fiction.
Notes: AU
Here is the 13th chapter. It’s split up in two parts because of change of POV. I hope you like it :D
Matthew’s POV
When I woke up the next day, I couldn’t help but smile. Last evening was the best evening I had ever had. I had finally figured out what the feeling I felt around Dom was. It was love. I acted on my impulse and it proved to be a good move.
I was making breakfast when I got a text message that scared the hell out of me.
‘We need to talk about yesterday… Can I come over?’
The text message was from Dominic.
After I sent my answer and address, I sat down in my chair. I wasn’t hungry anymore. I was sure Dom regretted it, I should have known. Of course he wouldn’t feel about me the same way I felt about him. What was the chance of falling in love with someone who would return the feelings? They were small, even smaller when they were a person of the same sex and smaller then smallest when both of us, at least I and from the looks of it Dominic as well, weren’t gay. I wasn’t gay, I believed. I had never felt this way for a man before. But personality is the most important thing for falling in love and Dom certainly had a personality I loved and when I kissed him everything felt right. But maybe he didn’t feel the same way.
I hid my face in my hands, trying my best not to cry out in frustration. If Dominic didn’t feel the same way I had destroyed the only proper friendship I had, besides the one with Tom. It wasn’t fair. Why did I have to fuck things up?
There was a knock on my door. I walked slowly towards the door, afraid of what would happen when I opened it. When I opened the door, to my big surprise and relief, I was met by a smiling Dominic. He gave me a peck on the cheek as I let him in. I blushed; maybe everything was going to be fine.
“I’m going to get myself something to eat,” I said. Now that it seemed Dom didn’t regret the day before, my hunger had returned. “Would you like something to eat?”
“I’m fine. I ate before I left,” he answered with a smile.
As I ate, Dom sat opposite to me at the table. Our feet bumped into each other all the time, causing me to blush like a schoolgirl with a crush. Dominic just smiled at me as I ate and blushed, but he showed no sign of nervousness. Was I the only one who was completely taken? What if I was wrong and he did regret what happened?
“So, I believe you wanted to talk,” I said. “Let’s sit in the living room instead, it’s much comfier there.”
Dom nodded and we sat down on the couch with about four inches of space between us. We sat in silence for about a minute before either of us said anything. Dominic was the one who broke the silence.
“This is ridiculous,” he said and closed the space between us.
“Yes,” I nodded and curled up under the arm he had thrown around me. He placed a kiss on my forehead and sighed.
“I didn’t believe I could feel like this for a man, you should know that. But here I am,” Dom smiled.
“I didn’t believe so either, but here I am as well,” I said.
“Here we are. Let’s just take one step at the time and see where we end up,” he said.
“Yeah, let’s do that,” I replied with a smile. “I’m so glad you feel the same as me. The text you sent me earlier scared the shit out of me. I thought you regretted it.”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you,” Dom said. “Come here.”
He pulled me up to his face so I was staring right into his eyes. I don’t think I’ve ever seen happier, kinder and warmer eyes. He pulled me into a tight hug, his hands stroking gently on my back. I felt Dominic’s lips against my neck. I stretched my neck to give him better access. He took the invitation and kissed his way from my neck to my lips.
“Your eyes are so beautiful,” he said. “As blue as the deep sea, I feel like I could swim in them.”
“Thank you,” I whispered. I blushed at his words; I wasn’t used to getting compliments.
For nearly half an hour we kissed, cuddled and gave each other compliments. I had never felt better in my entire life. But there was something nagging me at the back of my mind, a voice telling me I kept forgetting something. There was something I had to tell Dominic. Something he most likely already knew, but he deserved to hear it from me. He deserved an opportunity to run away from me and my past.
“Is there something wrong?” Dom asked concerned. He had felt me tensing.
“There is something I need to tell you.”
Part B