i dont want to be a soldier mama...
so, im sitting here dreading the second my dad says we need to go. i mean i am excited for this weekend, but its just sooo stressful.
i am seeing autumn ladymadonna and hana abbeyroad today after my rehearsal at the theater, which is downtown. im really pleased about this, and we will be taking pictures, since we three havent been together since...
-ponders-
september, making it 6 months. wohoo, i am pleased. i think autumn said somthing about hanging out in santa monica, but who knows. after that, my mentors (for spotlight) and my dad and i, are going to the ivy for dinner. let it be noted that the ivy is paris hilton's favorite restaurant. maybe i will get lucky and see herrrrr. ha. all day saturday i am going to be at the music center. i believe i will be doing two run throughs and then the show.
FOR EVERYONE WHO READS THIS AND IS COMING ON SATURDAY: please spread the info around that A:you need to be in your seats at 6:45, not getting there but in YOUR SEATS. and B:that after i have to take pictures backstage for the spotlight people and so DONT GO AWAY. i want to see everyone and just want to make it clear you might have to wait a couple of minutes.
OK, now that i got that off my mind, here is how i have summed up my feelings about this all...pleaseunderstandthatthisisformymentalstabilityandthatitsjustwhatineedtodoinordertorelax.
if i get second, i dont care. i mean sure i will be upset about not being the "winner" BUT you know what, its not going to ruin my life, honestly. look at lisa allagonzini, i think she should have won, she didnt, and thats that. so i will be cool...
BUT, if i do ONE TINY LITTLE thing wrong, i will be sooo mad at myself. haha, not too stressful but its how i feel. SO i plan on going out there, being specific with my choices as an actor and singer, putting it in the right vocal placement, and most of all, communicating the story. if i do all those things, i dont care what happens, i will be happy for putting on a good performance. and of course if i get first then i will be overjoyed, but who knows.
well here it is, i have to go. yuck. but listen i will be home saturday night, and i will let all you, who want to know, what happened. be sure for a lenghty post when i get back and lots of pictures.
oooooh, ps: my article came out today in the oc register, and i must say im quite pleased. the picture looks good and the article is realy flattering.
-sigh-
till then...
i am seeing autumn ladymadonna and hana abbeyroad today after my rehearsal at the theater, which is downtown. im really pleased about this, and we will be taking pictures, since we three havent been together since...
-ponders-
september, making it 6 months. wohoo, i am pleased. i think autumn said somthing about hanging out in santa monica, but who knows. after that, my mentors (for spotlight) and my dad and i, are going to the ivy for dinner. let it be noted that the ivy is paris hilton's favorite restaurant. maybe i will get lucky and see herrrrr. ha. all day saturday i am going to be at the music center. i believe i will be doing two run throughs and then the show.
FOR EVERYONE WHO READS THIS AND IS COMING ON SATURDAY: please spread the info around that A:you need to be in your seats at 6:45, not getting there but in YOUR SEATS. and B:that after i have to take pictures backstage for the spotlight people and so DONT GO AWAY. i want to see everyone and just want to make it clear you might have to wait a couple of minutes.
OK, now that i got that off my mind, here is how i have summed up my feelings about this all...pleaseunderstandthatthisisformymentalstabilityandthatitsjustwhatineedtodoinordertorelax.
if i get second, i dont care. i mean sure i will be upset about not being the "winner" BUT you know what, its not going to ruin my life, honestly. look at lisa allagonzini, i think she should have won, she didnt, and thats that. so i will be cool...
BUT, if i do ONE TINY LITTLE thing wrong, i will be sooo mad at myself. haha, not too stressful but its how i feel. SO i plan on going out there, being specific with my choices as an actor and singer, putting it in the right vocal placement, and most of all, communicating the story. if i do all those things, i dont care what happens, i will be happy for putting on a good performance. and of course if i get first then i will be overjoyed, but who knows.
well here it is, i have to go. yuck. but listen i will be home saturday night, and i will let all you, who want to know, what happened. be sure for a lenghty post when i get back and lots of pictures.
oooooh, ps: my article came out today in the oc register, and i must say im quite pleased. the picture looks good and the article is realy flattering.
-sigh-
till then...